creative_writerSenior Contributor
I can’t find peace
I guess I’m used to living on the edge 😔
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I can’t find peace
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx, raising highly sensitive kids is hard work, we feel so deeply. I think my mum didn’t know what to do or what was causing my issues. I probably had a lot of undiagnosed anxiety and then ASD affecting my quality of life. I had a caring family, but felt so alone and detached. School wasn’t a safe place for me. I couldn’t talk to my parents about things, I couldn’t even label all those big emotions back then, besides my parents have always been anxious people, I think deep down inside I believe the emotions were too much for them so I stopped going to them. My emotions were not validated, I know there is a shift in society now, but we have a very long way to go
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JynxModerator
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@creative_writer so much of your story resonates with mine. I was undiagnosed until 26 when I finally figured out I'm neurodiverse. My parents did the best they could, but weren't really able to nurture my wild emotions. Stopped going to them for support and it still took me the better part of 8 years to acknowledge I needed help. We do have a long way to go, but it's people like you, me, and the others on this forum who can be the cycle breakers.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx, I didn’t realise I was neurodivergent, even when I got the diagnosis, it took a while for me to process it. I think pushing things under the rug and trying to not care and be positive has good intentions but it doesn’t work. Pain needs to be acknowledged. Emotional pain has been seen as weakness and still is seen as weakness. I know from observation not dealing with your MH has ramifications down the track.
Sorry for late reply, I’ve had a busy day, went to uni today, the other students were having pressies, the head of placements thought it was a good idea to see what the students did on placement. I am looking at transferring to a research based placement. I probably should go to bed early, it’s been a day, and I’m coughing
Sorry for late reply, I’ve had a busy day, went to uni today, the other students were having pressies, the head of placements thought it was a good idea to see what the students did on placement. I am looking at transferring to a research based placement. I probably should go to bed early, it’s been a day, and I’m coughing
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JynxModerator
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@creative_writer you're totally right, pain does need to be acknowledged... and we live in a society where that is often frowned upon, or worse, punished. It really sucks, because emotions are the most human thing in the world, even the ones that are no fun.
Glad that you've been able to process your diagnosis. For me as well, took some time but in the end it was so, so amazing for me to finally have understanding of myself, and language to describe my experiences. And also, to stop comparing myself to others, stop calling myself weak/lazy/stupid, build strategies into my life to help me manage myself better, and to embrace my inner ND weirdo.
Ooh well I hope this next placement ends up being more suited to your skills, and that you actually get properly looked after this time!
Well if you head off to sleepies I wish you many big slumbering vibes and a solid night of rest hun 💜
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx, I think I need something more easy going with enough support. I can go for something different next placement when I feel a bit more stronger psychologically. I think my MH has gone downhill.
Even though I feel there has been a trend towards acceptance of ND people, it’s still hard. I’ve had my moments when I thought about how much life would be easier if I was NT. Then I guess I wouldn’t be me.
My throat is feeling incredibly scratchy and coughing doesn’t feel so nice, I think I’m going to head off to bed soon. Goodnight 💖
Even though I feel there has been a trend towards acceptance of ND people, it’s still hard. I’ve had my moments when I thought about how much life would be easier if I was NT. Then I guess I wouldn’t be me.
My throat is feeling incredibly scratchy and coughing doesn’t feel so nice, I think I’m going to head off to bed soon. Goodnight 💖
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JynxModerator
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Times are changing for sure @creative_writer but always room for more acceptance and understanding.
Goodnight, hope you feel better soon 💜
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I wish SANE chat was up and running, my voice is too croaky. Still feeling heightened
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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Why am I in so much emotional pain?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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When you have to resist SH but it’s hard 🥺
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tymeModerator
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Hey @creative_writer ,
I hear it is hard. I think it's a similar place most of us have been in. I'm here if you a chat can distract you.
tyme
