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Winter solstice

Winter solstice

Longest night of the year and the darkness and coldness have really hit. Things seem really bleak. I've been struggling for a long time and was pacing myself to this point but can't see beyond it. I'm safe but despairing. I'm trapped in a vortex of family dysfunction from earliest years and emotional pain, received and (mea culpa) inflicted. I can't help my closest sibling - all others are estranged - and I don't seem able to extricate myself from personal difficulties and dilemmas that at present ďefine me - I have no connections or other identity. I've lost faith in my mh team.

I guess the sun will rise tomorrow, and I'll keep taking one day at a time, but I can't envision a future, my future.

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Thanks, @Dimity .

How did you go yesterday evening?

It looks like a beautiful fine day today - you should be able to enjoy your walk.

I've got 6 errands to do before and after the morning coffee catch-up, so it will be a bit of a stressful day after all. Probably won't be home till 2.30pm or even after. Not sure how much energy I'll have for tidying this afternoon.

Hope you feel OK.

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@NatureLover I paid some bills but didn't get onto decluttering, I felt too tired and low.

Yes today looks lovely, from what I can see out the window. I'll see what I can do this morning after I get started (breakfast, shower, exercises).

I hope you enjoy your morning.

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Sorry you felt so tired and low 😥

I hope you feel a bit better this morning 🤞

Thanks, just waiting now ☕

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Hi @Dimity , how'd you go today?

I just got home and had a shower (due to going to the chemist today). So am too tired to do any tidying today as it's now 4.42pm. Back to work tomorrow.

Hope your day has been OK.

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@NatureLover I wasn't in the right headspace for tidying today. I was unsettled by something. I'm not sure what the answer is, hopefully it will work out. Tomorrow I should prepare for my home help Friday. Sorry I haven't been able to do more but I really appreciate your encouragement.

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Please don't be sorry, @Dimity . I understand being unsettled and how it takes over your headspace.

I hope the answer becomes clear.

I'm nervous about work (there'll be a huge backlog, plus still sick people apparently) but also excited to go back.

Good luck preparing for your home help.

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I hope work went OK for you yesterday @NatureLover .

I'm muddling on. Did 3 hours' cleaning and tidying yesterday. Today the nice home help cleaned while I decluttered some files in the spare room. I hope she's rostered more often.

Looks like some warm days ahead.

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Oooh, it would be good if you could get that nice cleaner all the time!

How often are you getting the cleaner in?

Well done for 3 hours' tidying and cleaning yesterday 👏

Yes, warm days which is nice. I've ended up having a big week and am tired. Work yesterday went well thanks...I was glad to be back.

@Dimity

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Yes that cleaner is very good as well as very cheerful and nice.

Glad you're back at work.

I'm meant to have cleaning once a fortnight but Anzac Day is coming up. I've not had regular cleaning yet

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Can you request that cleaner all the time? @Dimity

I guess with Anzac Day that means you won't have a cleaner for another month? 😣

I overdid it last week so am having a slow day today.

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