Winter solstice

Hugs @Dimity

Hearing you struggle. Stigma is insidious. Hope you find nourishment and trustworthy doctors.

I did a silly thing today. Promised myself to listen to a concert, knew people in the choir, and our choir concerts never sell out. Probably get cheaper rush tix. Nup. Got there and they were sold out. Tbh I was not really that miffed, it had always been a possibility. I was glad some choirs get good audiences and this was promising.... Good Luck to them. The theatre nextdoor was empty .. it is only Tuesday night! Under the Spire, had a few interactions in the Music Vault exhibition (Aussie rock and a Judith Durham dress), bought some cake and hopped back on train. Silly Apple. Once at home I booked a couple of tix for a new opera in December ... hope I can get son to escort me then ... lol

@Dimity Your sleep doesn't sound good, especially if you're run down. Brain fog is awful. Sorry to hear 😞

Wishing you better days (and nights)...

That was a pity about the concert @Appleblossom . At least you caught the exhibition and some cake.

When I was quite young I was devastated to just miss my tram to Yehudi and Hephzibah Menuhin's last Melbourne concert... but maybe it would have been sold out too.

One day I might be able to afford more concerts etc. Gotta unscramble some financial eggs first. Buying a turntable to listen to my vinyl again is a hope... might spur on my reorganising.

@Dimity Lovely to read your reply/ Have you read An Exacting Heart ... about Hepzibah in Western District and leaving Australia ...

My mood did plummet even tho not on the actual night. I withdrew from a few more things. Had a little panic attack one day and just could not be bothered the next. Forgot password for the site so did not log in for a few days. So easily going downhill ... I cannot stand hearing myself like that.

Hugs @Appleblossom hope you're pulling out of the slump... I've been low myself and felt panicky walking to the shops the other day... but weathered it... but avoided book group...

Haven't read the Hephzibah book but googled it. Looks interesting. Wish I could a. sort glasses and light for reading and b. sit down and relax and focus... I live in hope...

Do you sing on Sundays? Best wishes if so.

August. The evenings are lightening. Time marches on. I'm still out of my depth, treading water. Never learned to swim properly so floundering. Feel I should do some goal setting. Socialise. Venture back on the tidying thread. Try to reimagine my days. I feel empty and numb.

It's past midnight, so it's tomorrow already.

I wonder if the empty and numb feeling is because you recently unearthed some trauma?

@Dimity

Wishing hope and strength for you... 💚

@NatureLover you asked "I wonder if the empty and numb feeling is because you recently unearthed some trauma?"

Could be. It wasn't any one thing, more remembering different stuff and feeling resonance.

Sending hugs, @Dimity ...

It's cold again. I've been recalled to the hospital tomorrow but expect they'll discharge me. Tuesday will probably be the last I see of my helper, she's moving on. Wednesday I'll see a physio for the first time in 20 years, hoping they'll address my intermittent pain. My sister is finishing the next stage of her treatment. I'm barely getting by from one day to the next.