Winter solstice

Glad one has your back re plants @Dimity .. I have been put down and ridiculed for my court garden ... some appreciate it.

Not sure what spoon theory .. is ... spoonful of sugar ... empting the pond spoon by spoon ...lol

I am outraged at the MH stigma among health profession. It interferes with the quick in and out style of some It can interfere in their capcity to treat physical issues ... which has been a problem in my family and for me. I chose a Gp who said she specialised in MH, but then started making outrageous presumptuous statements about my son and treating me very badly. I waited hours to see her, and she took me for a ride. I have thought of lodging a complaint, but not sure whether it is worth my while. Yes I will move on ... again ... when I am desperate to see a doctor ... of pain in groin at moment... but putting it off ... groaning ovaries someone once said.

Hey @NatureLover

A court garden sounds wonderful @Appleblossom

Hope you persist with getting medical issues addressed and treated. Today I got access to my diagnostic report so with help of Google am more across things.

Learnt about spoon theory from a forum post. Spoons are units of (physical and mental) energy and people compromised by chronic conditions have a finite (often variable) number of spoons each day to deal with.

I will look up spoon theory ... @Dimity the open communal quality of the forum ... means that we can learn things in an organic way ... which I love.

My court garden grew gradually as I dealt with weeds on the verges ... as it backs onto a waterway ... I am hoping eventually to get others involved in it as a linking green corridor ... some have said it is a great idea ...just crying out for atttention ... different folks ... different opinions.

Take Care ...

Saw this @Dimity

Thought of you. We do care ...

Thankyou my lovely @Appleblossom.

Indeed.

I'll toddle off to bed feeling a little happier.

I was writing a long and rather agonised post when the page reset and I lost it all.

My day was not unpleasant as I distracted myself with domestic things but I've also been ruminating. I need to find counselling to help me deal with past and present stuff.

Saw this quote just now.

Lao Tzu, an ancient Chinese philosopher and the founder of Taoism, once said: "If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present."

Heartache. Worn out. Battling stigma and self-stigma re physical vs mental health. Floundering when trying to help self and others. Trapped and sinking. Praying for fortitude.

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Heartache. Worn out. Battling stigma and self-stigma re physical vs mental health. Floundering when trying to help self and others. Trapped and sinking. Praying for fortitude.

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Sad to hear this @Dimity 🫂

Hoping your sleep has reset you and that you feel some hope today 💚

(How is your sleep?)

Thankyou @NatureLover... yes a little better today. I guess it could be a week until I see anyone again, so it's up to me to get back on track myself. Sleep has been variable, not sleeping some nights, but sleeping in or napping some days, feeling very run down, and losing track of evening mealtime. I'll persevere and trust I'll refind my inner Zen, but it will be hard unless I can address my ongoing anxiety. Keeping occupied is probably key, and refinding hobbies and interests. I seem to have had brain fog for ages. It's taken forever to write this post.