Winter solstice

Council is sending someone in a couple of weeks @NatureLover but they were very critical when they were here before and complained about things that the assessor had said were OK.

That sounds a really difficult time for you @NatureLover - 3 years bedridden and reinventing yourself. Was it very long ago? Had you been functioning well until that point or were the trauma ocd and agoraphobia etc always troublesome?

Oh no, @Dimity ! I'm sorry to hear the council support worker complained 😣

I'm glad you have a starting date, despite it being so long after your surgery.

My nervous breakdown was 2006-2008 (3 years). The MIs really got much worse then and remained so.

I hope you can start sleeping much better soon 🤞

I'm sorry your MIs worsened @NatureLover but to me you're doing wonderfully well compared with that awful 3 years. I guess your SAD is likely to creep up again but I trust your hands are better than they were. It's so good you can volunteer and garden and socialise and enjoy your reading. And you've made progress on home storage.

On reflection I'm not in a good place and my efforts haven't been helping improve my situation. I really must try to face the therapist but I'm unable to at present.

Thank you for your kind words, @Dimity . Yes, those 3 nightmare years <shudder> You're right, things are so much better now.

I'm sorry things feel so bad and hopeless for you 😥 I hope you get to a point where you can face the therapist, if that's your aim. Also that things feel brighter very soon 🤞

Sending hugs 🫂

@NatureLover I feel better, having regained some control, after navigating the latest family disagreement, visiting my sister in hospital, and collecting litter and garbage from the street. It was 12 months since I'd comfortably picked up litter so the surgery has made a big difference. Yesterday I reported 11 properties for illegally dumping rubbish on nature strips after a break of 6 weeks. It's a constant battle I wish I could do more to make the neighbourhood greener and cleaner.

So pleased you're feeling a bit better and more in control @Dimity ! Well done re the family disagreement and visiting your sister in hospital - both sound difficult.

And I'm so pleased you feel physically well enough after your surgery to pick up litter!

I didn't do much yesterday so have a long list today. I won't get through it all but hope to make some progress.

Hoping your day is good today 🤞

Hope you ticked off some of your list @NatureLover . I picked up more litter.

I also napped for a couple of hours.

The gardening help has cancelled this week (again). I'll try to get back to doing what I can but I'm restricted in what I can do.

Decluttering seems beyond me at present.

I didn't tick off anything on my list, but hope to do some today @Dimity .

Glad you're able to nap during the day. I'm guessing your sleep is still bad and interrupted at night?

Oh gosh, that gardening help is frustrating!

Decluttering is beyond me at the moment too.

Hi @NatureLover I hope you had a good day whether you were busy or not.

I'm not waking as often thanks but today was a write-off. I think I might have had my night meds this morning.

Tomorrow I'll try to straighten before home help comes Friday,

Oh good, you're having the council house help tomorrow? @Dimity

Sorry about your meds muddle 🫂

Yesterday I did a lot of watering, plus nearly an hour on the house. I'm going to try again to do 1 hour on non-work days.

I hope the improvement in your sleep continues, and you wake less often 🤞