Winter solstice

I haven't decided @NatureLover The new one suggested going back in 2-3'weeks.

The morning was a bit chaotic as I'd expected telehealth but they tried to call me in on 15 minutes notice when I hadn't showered or breakfasted, and needed to get a taxi.

The garden helper came but once again did things I hadn't asked for and did hardly any weeding. I'll get her back - it's better than not having her at all.

That is all very disappointing and stressful, @Dimity ! Sorry to hear 😣

I will be sending wishes that the garden helper listens to you in future. Are you paying her?

Yes I pay a lot for her help @NatureLover it's quite expensive.

Gosh I'm tired today. I need to water and tidy, but will nap as well.

If you're paying a lot for her help, then she definitely should be doing what you ask for, @Dimity .

I hope you can nap today.

4 days until Autumn equinox which is also 6 week mark, the end of my first recovery phase. Another 6 weeks to full recovery.

Utterly over it.

Apart from words on a screen I have zero contact with anyone.

Ohhh hugs 🫂 @Dimity

Wish I could give you a big cuddle and. Have a cuppa with you ❤️

Gosh thanks @Shaz51 . I guess I'll have an early night. Quite cool and very wet today.

No wonder you are over your recovery journey - it's a long one @Dimity 😥 🫂

I guess if you are getting your groceries delivered, there's no chance of friendly chatting with a checkout operator, which is something I really used to value when most of my old Christian friends deserted me. (From my experience, the delivery drivers don't chat?)

I hope your spirits are a little lifted by the sunshine today...

I haven't been through a checkout for years @NatureLover as I've always packed my own shopping jeep at self checkouts. I see a neighbour sometimes.

I sometimes try to ring my sister but she almost never picks up.

I'll have to restart with my therapist sometime but can't face it yet. We never really got started I've only seen her twice.

I thought I would have had help from support workers the last few weeks but I've had the one visit from the gardener . She rearranged the carport instead of weeding. I've had no help with housework in spite of my efforts with council and the agency.

I do feel hemmed in by clutter and lack of transport, but at the same time fear going out.

It sounds as though your change of heart over religion was difficult and disruptive for you, and I'm sorry you lost friends.

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Ah yes, I see (re checkouts) @Dimity . I also started using the self serve checkouts due to germs, during Covid.

Yes, I'm disappointed too that you haven't had the council help / support workers after your big surgery. Will you still be getting it at some point?

I'm sorry your sister hardly ever picks up 😣

Yes, my giving up of religion was a complete life change. I had to start again virtually from scratch. New lifestyle, new friends, new home, everything. That was after my 3 years in bed with my nervous breakdown (severe depression and SI).

I hope that today is a better day for you...