Hoping to connect with someone

Hi all, feeling a little lost about it all… the who, the what, the where, the why, the, how. Still aiming to thrive seems I’ve been doing alright but just want to feel good all the time…

don’t have any friends I could call at the moment, seems my friendships last 5-10years and then that’s it. they’ve been manipulative, controlling, narcissistic, sociopathic… some normal but I guess I don’t look normal, against the word of my psych, family… I don’t know that’s where all my problems stem I feel.

working, but that’s been challenging, people seem they know you by looking at you, anything resonating with you?

family is the only thing has been by my side I feel very grateful for them… they don’t tend to like me much, but they love me… I’m 35 and feeling confused by all this things used to just flow for me, I want to go back to that, but it’s quiet hard and challenging given everything.

@MDT @TAB @StuF @Former-Member how are you guys doing? Sometimes my mind goes crazy and how I’m feeling at the time seems like it is right for everything at that moment, I’ve almost been broken, well… I just want everything to go my way for once. I don’t want to be controlled by other people actions, is that possible?