KurraSenior Contributor
On the outside looking in
This sounds weird because it is. Having spent the last month adapting to longer hours and a much heavier workload I found it necessary to look after me before attending to the needs of others.
This has not been a result of my being unwell but my way of remaining well. However it seems to have backfired on me, particularly in relation to my attempts to re-engage with the forum. I'm clearly blowing this situation completely out of proportion however it has been troubling me since Friday night. I wasn't going to say anything but since my feelings of disquiet have continued unabated it's obviously important to give these feelings a voice.
This afternoon I've finally caught up with all the posts but found myself not bothering to reply to any because it seemed that there wasn't much point.
I realise that these are feelings only and not reality but it seems as if I don't particularly belong here. Perhaps I never have because I am no longer experiencing active episodes. At this time you could say that I've recovered. Whether this will become a permanent state of affairs or not only time will tell. I was even thinking that I'm being punished because I am well.
Yes this is really stupid thinking but it doesn't make it any less real.
This has not been a result of my being unwell but my way of remaining well. However it seems to have backfired on me, particularly in relation to my attempts to re-engage with the forum. I'm clearly blowing this situation completely out of proportion however it has been troubling me since Friday night. I wasn't going to say anything but since my feelings of disquiet have continued unabated it's obviously important to give these feelings a voice.
This afternoon I've finally caught up with all the posts but found myself not bothering to reply to any because it seemed that there wasn't much point.
I realise that these are feelings only and not reality but it seems as if I don't particularly belong here. Perhaps I never have because I am no longer experiencing active episodes. At this time you could say that I've recovered. Whether this will become a permanent state of affairs or not only time will tell. I was even thinking that I'm being punished because I am well.
Yes this is really stupid thinking but it doesn't make it any less real.
