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@tyme @rav3n @Ru-bee @RiverSeal

How are you guys coping?

I think I'm just a bit quiet, but I'm okay @Oaktree

Hope every one else is okay @Till23 @Former-Member @MJG017

Thanks @tyme I was quite shocked and sad this morning but I have settled a bit now.

It’s been good to chat to the others here.

It’s been great that the mods have been keeping and eye on things and @RiverSeal who was here when the news broke

@Till23 @Former-Member @MJG017 @tyme @RiverSeal @Eve7 @avant-garde

Hey guys,

It was a roller coaster of emotions for me this morning. First thing I did was to check on how Hopeandlove was only to find that she had passed. I went from hope when I saw that she had posted to crushing sadness. There were tears shed. I am grateful that we weren’t just left wondering though. I am really grateful that the staff member at the hospital took the time to fulfill Hopeandlove’s last wish. It was one of my greatest honours to be there with her the past couple of days. I am sorry that I didn’t know her better but she has left an impact on me. I will always remember her and I have made a note in my phone as to when her birthday is so that I never forget.

Absolutely @Oaktree @Till23 ,

It was such an honour to be beside Hopeandlove right up to the very end. It has really brought the community together.

Death is a natural part of life.

Whilst there is sorry that comes with the passing away of someone, it is also an opportunity to remember and celebrate what we knew of them.

So glad to have you all with us tonight @Oaktree @Till23 @Former-Member @MJG017

@tyme

I think we are all just a bit sad today.

Thinking that she doesn’t have anyone to claim her is quite sad. I hope that she is treated with dignity.

God only knows @Oaktree .

At least we know she is now pain free.

Hugs.

I'm still trying to figure things out in my head. While Hopeandlove was here I was focused on her and support her as best I could and just being there for her as much as I could.

Now that she's finally at peace and I've had most of the day to process that, my mind goes to myself and how before being admitted to hospital she talked about knowing she only had a few years left. Having spent all of last year trying to deal with the same prognosis i think the shock of how fast everything progressed for Hopeandlove has affected me a lot more than i thought. Over the past 2 and a half years I have had my own estimations revised down a number of times. The last one in November I thought was the last as most option had failed by then and very few were left. But seeing how quickly 'a few years' can come 'a week or so' that thought of I was finally free of at least not having any more major downward revisions is... well, the contentment i got from that is shaken.

As i finish writing the above, i still don't know why I wrote it or what I hoped it would achieve, I just felt I had to get it out of my head somewhere. So this seemed as a good a place as any.

@MJG017

I certainly hope that you get more time than expected. I can understand why you are shaken. Hugs x

I am really shaken too @MJG017 just by the speed that everything changed. I think the best we can do is make the most of every day but I do acknowledge that is not always easy.

Thinking of you.