Tw: suicidal ideation and self harm urges

@AnonymousEmpath

Hold on, please.

If you have nothing ahead of you and zero motivation, you having nothing to lose, either... so hold on, please.

@AnonymousEmpath

The fact that you have come on here and are talking with me tells me that while prepared your not ready to give up, there is even if its a small amount, hope.

BPD is hard, I wont pretend otherwise. I have BP2 w/psychotic features so not easy but there are more "immediate" treatment to make it more managable, not easy but managable.

BPD is a different kettle of fish, DBT is about it and its years to master it. But it can be done.

What I have discovered is that while there is a downside to BPD for sure but there is an upside to, there are periods of beauty, thats what you have to hold on to as much as you can.

I may be completely off the mark, Im new to the world of BPD. But as I said, I 100% believe that there is hope in your life.

Keep reaching out, I will keep responding. Speak to SANE drop in line, they will help more than I can but dont take that as me dropping out, Im here but as you know I have family and personal issues so I will only respond when Im home and available but SANE is there, so is Beyond Blue and Lifeline. If you really need it go to ER and talk with them. Hold on to that little sliver of hope, hold on to it with all you have

@ClockFace @Kyle1 @Peregrinefalcon thank you for all the kind words and suggestions…

im already doing DBT and has been putting the skills I’ve learned so far in place but as I said iT can only do so much.,

Feeling lost and confused atm… I don’t know ow which way to go.,, all that comes to mind is to SH or plan how to end my own life… I feel that those who suppose to help me just wants me dead or they truly dont want to help me get out of this rut… everyone’s against me and not with me… I hear voices in my head that they’re constantly nagging me about why I should end it… I can’t seem to control it… or atleast I don’t know how to control it… tonight I’m at risk of SH and/or attempting to put the suicide plan in place., I need some reprieve from this feeling and urges… I don’t know what to do! I need help!!!

@AnonymousEmpathi tried that tonight and it doesn't work. I'm more wired than dead

I truly feel that everyone’s against me coz myaccount withbeyondblue has been suspended for some reason hence why I can’t get thru to a crisis support organisation., so where does people expect me to reach out? Or do they truly want me dead and just plainly doesn’t want to help me at all? I’ve truly had it and have tried my best but I think that this is the end of me and me trying… I’m so done!