BPD

I agree with you that it's very hard to diagnose in the beginning as originally I was thought to have bipola as my father has it but once I was completely checked by a great new psychiatrist and lots of group therapy I was taken off all Meds slowly and re diagnosed as PTSD & BPD. But after years of therapy my psychiatrist said if he was to have a re diagnosis he would only classify me as PTSD. I have suffered extreme abuse in many ways over my life starting as a child age 2 onwards. I feel that the BPD flares up at times of stress life events and I get many triggers from my past that create the emotional rollercoaster. I suffer from anxiety with it and I stress a lot about everything. I have the most amazing partner but I don't believe he understands completely what I deal with inside and he takes on board the reactions and things I say which sure his only human but he detaches from me and takes flight mode and leaves me completely alone which is the exact opposite to what I need. I want to know how I can deal with the emotion side and think before I speak as I tend to say what I'm thinking and it all comes out like verbal vomit. I am a Christian and I pray to God that he helps me overcome these emotions. I pray we all have healing over this. I don't have all the traits of BPD but once there is something in my mind I tend to focus on that. I suffer from the abandonment and lonely side a great deal and lack of self worth but I am a child of the most high God and I will not be defeated and I will chose to be an overcomer. Thankyou for sharing. It helps to not feel soo alone.