Piecing the shattered glass together

Am I just being avoidant or is this anxiety based on the truth. So I have this tendency of wanting to avoid having close relationships because I find it hard to feel safe in relationships, I want to be fully independent and not need people because that would mean I’m too dependent and will get hurt. Another part of me wants relationships, it’s so confusing.

My social worker and pastor tells me we are wired for relationships. We're made to connect. Her husband, also a pastor, reminds me that of all the things God made and called it good there was but one thing not good: a solitary human. And so he made a partner...

@creative_writer

@Kyle1, it's true they say we are wired for relationships. I'm not Christian, but even as a Muslim I believe God does create partners for humans for a reason. Maybe I am just scared. I know healing also involves reaching out for support, but it's just scary and hard to be vulnerable. I could go to a therapy room, feel teary, and even my psych would notice, but I can't be vulnerable because crying doesn't feel okay. I learnt that I was never meant to be vulnerable around people, so then, I often have the most painful silent sobs in bed 😭.

That is so hard to take @creative_writer

I know exactly what that's like and it's so painful... 😪

I hope you can let it out quickly, atleast...

Lost in despair is like hypoxia. 😓🙏

sounds like you are accepting the process... @creative_writer

I'm still in dismay.

Either way, it's not easy is it...