utopiaSenior Contributor
Self Medicating Again
Am so embarrassed and ashamed to admit this - but I've been drinking again these past 2 weeks & everyday bar one - for the past week.
So of course my mood is low. Depression and alcohol don't mix. I can't work on my anxiety. I don't want to listen to one more relaxation ap or do another breathing exercise or meditation. I don't want to write in my journal. Or do the gardening or dance to music. I just feel like wallowing in self bleeping pity and being self destructive.
Of course - because I've gone off the rails - my mind has nothing but negative self talk to say.
So need to rant here and put down all this negative shite & hope and pray that tomorrow will be another day.
what a bloody hypocrite I've been.
So of course my mood is low. Depression and alcohol don't mix. I can't work on my anxiety. I don't want to listen to one more relaxation ap or do another breathing exercise or meditation. I don't want to write in my journal. Or do the gardening or dance to music. I just feel like wallowing in self bleeping pity and being self destructive.
Of course - because I've gone off the rails - my mind has nothing but negative self talk to say.
So need to rant here and put down all this negative shite & hope and pray that tomorrow will be another day.
what a bloody hypocrite I've been.
