stinkymonkeyNew Contributor
Depersonalisation/Derealisation Struggle
Hi Guys,
This is my first post, so I’m not sure if I’m doing this right lol, sorry in advance !!
For the past couple of months or so I have really been struggling with my anxiety and depression. I have had quite a few panic attacks recently, and each day I feel like my mental health is declining - even though I am trying my absolute best to go to work, see friends, and do things I normally enjoy.
What I can’t seem to shake the most, is this very intense feeling of depersonalisation. I am diagnosed with generalised anxiety, but the experience of derealisation is what gets to me the most. Every night, I feel it coming on, and I get thrown into what feels like a nightmare I can’t wake up from. I get tunnel vision, my heart races, I have a lump in my throat - and nothing feels real. I feel like I’m having a bad trip or something. And there’s absolutely nothing I can do to get relief.
I have brought this up to doctors, psychologists and psychiatrists - and they assure me that it’s just an uncomfortable physical sensation, almost minimising it as something that is not that serious. But to me, it’s honestly the worst thing in the world; and really damaging to my mental health and functionality as a whole. I am really struggling to keep up with life and stay positive, when half the time I’m frozen in fear, unable to do anything.
I have felt like this before, and it does eventually go away - but it always comes back, I’m just not sure why. I was wondering if anyone else has gone through this too, and what sort of things help. I would love to hear others experiences !!
Thanks :))
