Not Coping

I'm going to join a clinical trial that is a high blood medication to help depression next week. The only down fall is it's double-blind meaning a placebo so I have a change of getting that as well @Having-Hope

I don't think my doctors would want to do that. I'm not sure they would want to do that for an overseas medication.

@Birdofparadise8

I think that's really great that you've joined a trial already! I hope you don't receive the placebo, but either way you're doing a really valuable thing for others living with depression.

Maybe keep your eye on other trials too; because not all of them use placebos, as I'm sure you know!

Yeah, as long as it doesn't make my blood pressure go too low, lol. My blood pressure is good. I just need something to work @Having-Hope

Can I ask if are you new here?

@Birdofparadise8

I am! I live with BPD and have depression and anxiety that comes and goes.

I'm feeling a little bit better right now so I'm trying to share some positive support while I can. If history is anything to go by, I'll be asking for support one day too :S

I have depression as well, so fun, hey.

That's good @Having-Hope

Can I ask if you studying, working or neither?

I'm studying at uni and I also work 2 days a week part-time.

@Birdofparadise8

Fun is one way to put it haha

I've finished studying so I'm just working now.

I did the whole uni / part-time work thing. How is that working out for you?

I have BPD too @Having-Hope . I think it's been the best thing ever for me! I really feel like I have learnt so much because of my BPD.

I was being sarcastic hard to get that with online chat @Having-Hope

Ah, nice, what are you doing?

It's alright. I've just gone back to study, so I'll have to get back into the rhythm of study, uni and life.

I work in admin in an ED.

What are you doing tomorrow, @tyme?

I'm going to the AFL to see Carlton play. My dad said he is worried as there are seven injured and they are good players. I'm also going on my own, so that will be nervewracking.

Oh so was I, don't worry haha @Birdofparadise8

I went back to study too; I had some bad experiences in a job and decided to take a break and do a masters. You know how sometimes just forcing a massive change feels like it can help change some emotional things?

Do you like what you're studying?

I'm work an office job where it's a bit of a mix of writing and stakeholder engagement. I find my current job really quite fulfilling - I mean, in the context of what I can do with just a keyboard and mouse! I try to advocate for the government to invest more in health. I'm sorry that I can't give much more detail than that here!

By ED do you mean emergency department? How do you find that? Even thinking about it stresses me out!