Not Coping

You too @outlander

Good night!

Hi @creative_writer @outlander @Shaz51 @Bow @Kyle1 @Captain24 @Jynx

How is everyone today?

Howdy @Birdofparadise8 I'm alright, how are you?

Jut enjoying the sound of rain on the roof 😊

Hi @Jynx, that's good.

The moment I read that, I looked out my window to see it was raining.

Do you live in Vic?

Mmm, I'm just trying to get through the day. At least I've had a shower and cooked dinner for today.

I'll be speaking to my regular at KHL tonight there is lots to talk about with work and that colleague of mine. I'm not sure if you looked at any of my posts over the past few days and what I'm planning, and how it just happens to fall on one of the days I'm working.

@Birdofparadise8 Based in Naarm! Aka Melbourne. It's sunny now, which is so typical ahaha.

Yeah been following along. Really glad KHL have your back in this, it's super reassuring you have that regular support. I hope the chat goes well, feel free to report back.

Have you had a chance to speak to your management about this colleague yet?

I know, right I just had another look @Jynx so funny.

I hope so too. I have a safety plan in place. I'll see my psychologist tomorrow and my GP on Friday.

Not since I did on Thursday last week. I haven't worked since then, but I'll be talking to my team leader to see if they met about it with the ED coordinator and NUM. She said they were going to, but I'm not too hopeful as she said that would happen before, and it never did.

I'm really not looking forward to the shift on Tuesday. I really do feel it will push me over the edge. I'm always a complete mess after working with this particular colleague.

It also sucks that my aunt and uncle are going away today, so I can't tell them how bad things are, and I can't talk to them till they get back, which isn't till the 8th of August. They are going overseas, so I can't text or call them, they said.

@Birdofparadise8 Will you also share your safety plan with your psych and GP? Might be good to have lots of different supports in place, especially with your aunt n uncle going away.

Hmm well it's good you've spoken to management already, but since nothing happened then it might be a good idea to not just mention it again, but really push for it. It is having a huge impact on your psychosocial wellbeing! It might have slipped their mind, and you have every right to be pushy. I know it's not comfortable to be pushy, I struggle with it too. But if you reframe it for yourself by saying you're advocating for your mental health needs, it might be a little easier to approach. Considering how much of a rough spot you're in, it's actually a pretty big deal, so being insistent and firm with them should help. Maybe even let them know that you're hesitant (or outright refuse) to even come to work on Tuesday since nothing has been done about the situation.

Yes, I've just sent it to my psych. GP though I could only email it to the practice, and then they forward it to her. I'm not too sure I'm comfortable with a lot of people knowing, but I can just show her on Friday when I see her. My counsellor at KHL will hopefully be able to give her a call tomorrow to update her on the changes, and then we can go from there.

Yes, it's the second thing I'll mention @Jynx. I need to ask why she has given me shifts in August that are days I can't work, as I put down when I can and can't work.

I don't really have that much more other than here and professionals. I know my psych will want to make an appointment for next Wednesday, and I feel I'll know how that will go. That's only if I go if I haven't already, you know. Makes me more accountable through having the appointment because I won't want to disappoint her like I am with everyone else.

I'm not sure about St Vincent's triage and if I should try them again.

@Birdofparadise8 sounds like your workplace have really dropped the ball hey. Do you like the job otherwise? I hope it's just because they've been busy, and not because they tend to treat their staff as expendable robots with no needs or emotions.

Accountability is good! Can certainly help provide safeguards against the SI, which is really important. Tough to be going into next week with so few close connections (that aren't MH professionals) to lean on though. How've you been going with making friends at uni?

I say go ahead n try St. Vincents again. Even if they can't help in the present, they'll have more info if you then end up needing to call them again next week.

Yes, I feel like that has been the case. The job and hours a good. It fits well with my uni schedule. Other than some staff, it's good. Last Thursday was a good shift. I was the only female, and the other men I worked with were all very nice @Jynx.

Yes, very much so. I literally sit here in my room all alone, having dinner. I don't see anyone if I'm not studying or working. Very lonely life right now. I have one friend who lives an hour away, but I'll see her more next sem as we have three classes together. Another friend, I don't know if you remember, but he was the guy I had a crush on that turned out to be gay. He is like three hours away till he comes back to his apartment. Then the other one I did have hasn't spoken to me since I told her about me being this suicidal in May. So she had left. The funny thing is she is studying psychology which I find ironic since she kept asking me all these questions about what was wrong.

Do you mean to talk to them this week? I'll ask my psych tomorrow. She might call for me. I found when I was in Hobart with the Acute Care Team, they didn't listen to me, so if it's coming from her, they might be more open to it.

What are you doing for dinner? I cooked a spinach and riccota pasta bake.