Not Coping

Ah okay @Bow

Don’t you work?

No @Birdofparadise8 i don’t work. I haven’t worked since I had my daughter 7 yrs ago. I had every intention of going back to work once my daughter was 1, but then my marriage ended and then my mental health crashed.

ah okay far enough then @Bow.

I have sad news no one at the private inpatient would take me which sucks. I have one other place to try or I’ll just have to go public.

Hey @tyme

Are you on today?

I tried to get into the place I have my appointment with the psychiatrist appointment at the end of June but no one would take me. So I have to wait till the 5th to see if she will but that’s when I’m wanting to go in. I just missed my GP as they close at 5:30 so I’ll try my last option and then if I can’t get in there I don’t know what to do. It looks like I’ll have to go public.

Hi @Birdofparadise8 ,

If things get worse, go to ED and just go from there.

Hope it doesn't get worse though.

I think that's what I'll have to do.

I've been okay tonight as I'm at work, but Sunday could be a different story.

I have to work tomorrow now as well which is good and bad lol.

How are you feeling today @tyme?

I am looking forward to 10pm when I finish, but I feel a spiral already starting.

Maybe it's about resisting the spiralling? @Birdofparadise8 It's an active process. It's not about sitting back and letting yourself spiral.

I do it all the time. Like the past few days have been hard. But I feel so much better today and detached from what has happened.

Definitely better.

It's hard though as I'm feeling so sad and I just want to cry so badly but I can't till I leave work.

I just want to craw up into a ball. I don't understand why nothing can every go my way for once.

I am glad you're feeling better though @tyme.

Maybe not being able to leave is actually better for you right now? Do you think so? It sort of gives you responsibility to keep you well. @Birdofparadise8 I certainly know that was the case for me in the past.

Yeah I guess I’ll just see how I feel in three hours time then @tyme.

It’s pretty quite now so I don’t have much to do.