Not Coping

A colloquialism for TV is " the idiot box" and that's precisely my opinion of it... a waste of time.

I do watch things though. Just not television. @Birdofparadise8

Have you been dancing at all, still?

@tyme Hi

I've been going backwards...

I saw my gp again yesterday and restarted an earlier medication. Because I was starting to lose it... @Birdofparadise8

Oh okay I watch netflix and stuff I'm not into reality tv @Kyle1

No I am too busy with uni.

Same it's made me so much worse

One of my meds makes me EAT..... @Birdofparadise8 @Kyle1 - so i know what you mean.

Sometimes, when I'm tired, I just give in to the cravings.. other times, I'm pretty okay.

Hope you have all been well 🙂

I wish I could same I'm okay @tyme but sadly no.

I'm sorry to hear it is still so difficult. I remember the last time we spoke, your aunt had come over to change things around in your room? What did you do with your room? @Birdofparadise8

Thank you, @tyme. We moved my fridge and got some shelving to put my food on so it's all organised and put some 3M hooks up and fairy lights.

If you also remember what we discussed with work and this week, that has also worsened.

The reorganisation of your room sounds lovely and fresh @Birdofparadise8 .

The discussion from last week doesn't sound as lovely and fresh. Sounds like it's been very tough. What are some of your other interests that can engage you and give you meaning and purpose in life?

Yes much nicer now @tyme

I don't know. It's all pretty concrete, and it's for tomorrow night after work, so who knows what will happen. Though if I am contemplating it when I get home, I'll call KHL.

I'm really scared, @tyme.

Nothing is giving me hope right now. I finally have my appointment with the psychiatrist next Wednesday, but that can't give me enough hope. It's not like things will magically be fixed after talking to him once.

This medication has done a number on me. I regret starting it.