Not Coping

Yeah that makes sense @tyme I just wish I could stop but then at the same time I don’t want to stop so it just hard to know what to do.

I just hope next year will be better and things improve because the past 6 months have just sucked to much and I just wish I could be happy.

@tyme , did you do something else when you got the urge ??

I don't believe so @Shaz51 - for me, it was more about prevention rather than cure.

I simply didn't get into situations that gave me the urge e.g. stay too long on my own sitting idle, or get frustrated but not have an outlet.

Also, as part of my safety plan, items were removed out of my reach. This doesn't mean I didn't have SH items, it just meant it was too much effort to get them! By the time I actually got what I needed, the desire to harm disappeared....

Over time, i think my brain just didn't bother thinking to do it anymore.

How's things @Birdofparadise8 ?

Hey @tyme

Could be better to be honest feeling pretty down and out tonight.

How are you?

Awww @Birdofparadise8 ,

Anything particular that's happened?

I had an end-of-year work function today. We had different food vans and games. I ended up having a souvlaki and gelato 🙂 I didn't stay long though.

I had my GP appointment today it was okay I got a MHCP which was good. Other then that I just did some stuff for my mum.

I guess just myself hahaha.

Sounds fun @tyme and yummy. I have my work dinner on Tuesday.

Oh! So you don't have a MHCP? @Birdofparadise8

Actually, thanks for the reminder... I need to get a new one 🙂

As for the work dinner, it was okay. Tasted okay at first, but I couldn't eat it all. The gelato was good though.

It was good to be able to talk to some people, but it was also good to get away. I can't say I'm the best at social situations.

I wonder how @Captain24 is going with her work function?

Do you have any plans for tomorrow? I have a baby's first birthday tomorrow. They've booked out a play centre to celebrate.

Hey sorry another thing I’m just watching 911 and I think a man is wanting to commit suicide and it just gives off a wave of sadness over me and I’m feeling triggered is there anything I can do to help that because my mum still wants to watch it and won’t let me leave to do something else @tyme

No not till today. It’s been free where I’ve been seeing my psych.

Well at least you liked the gelato @tyme.

I have my Chem exam tomorrow.