Not Coping

No, I will do it this week @tyme

Super @Birdofparadise8 . Sounds like a hard but interesting one 🙂

It's really good you can manage 4 units. It's a lot.

Yeah, it will be @tyme.

What have you done today?

I took the kids to the park today. There's this park that the kids have always wanted to go to, but have never had the chance, so I took them today. I also took them to the shops and bought them each a foam glider. @Birdofparadise8

Then I had people over for afternoon tea. It was a pleasant day. I've got a lingering headache, but I think I've had enough sleep now and much more refreshed.

What did you get up to apart from uni?

That sounds like a lovely day @tyme.

I did a lot of meal prepping. I made pad Thai, meatball pasta bake and teriyaki chicken and fried rice.

Also just started to have a breakdown I am waiting to get in contact with KHL. It seems to be taking a long time, so I am not sure I will bother. I've already self-harmed so yeah.

You know what today was going alright as I was really busy all day, but once I came back to my room and sat down for dinner at six, I've been a mess ever since. Why can't I just have five minutes and not be sad?

Maybe there IS 5 minutes of happiness somewhere, but your brain is not allowing you to see it @Birdofparadise8 ? Do you think so?

There is so much in you and waiting for you @Birdofparadise8 . However, the black dog hangs over and grows by the day. It is getting fed more and more while the white dog fades away.

Learn to feed the white dog and it'll soon come back to life.

Have you read "I have a Black Dog"?

Maybe just after you sat down from the busy day and your body had a chance to rest it all came out. It can be hard to be "on" all day. Some self-soothing perhaps might help. Do you ever use those sensory type toys/gadgets whatever they are called?

I mean just five minutes of happiness when I sit down to take a break and rest. I shouldn't have to sit here trying to watch a show or do my uni study while I am crying. I had such a busy day and just wanted to relax and enjoy myself, but the moment I went to, I just started crying.

Yes, I have heard of the black dog. What is the white dog though @tyme?

I'm trying to write some notes for one of my classes, but I don't think I am getting very far @Paperdaisy

No, I don't have any. Are they good?

@Birdofparadise8 For SH these kinds of things and sensory toys

Things to help regulate after a big day..