Not Coping

@Birdofparadise8 hey princess,

I missed Sunday chat, mum came over and stayed for dinner so I missed the entire chat.

Not doing well, I'm feeling isolated at work, being left out of conversations and ignored by everyone.

Today is my Goddaughters birthday too so I'm really sad about that.

It's a long weekend in WA and I can't wait for today to be over.

Feeling miserable, hope you're doing better.

Much ❤️

🫂👑💙👸

Hi @ENKELI

I am so sorry you are having a hard time at work. The last time we spoke, you mentioned some lovely things that were happening there. What has changed since then? I thought they really liked you. Can you say something?

Aww, I'm so sorry.

I'm sitting with you, alright. I'm here for you.

Eh, I've had some days up and down, lol. I didn't get that job at the hospital, so that's a bit disappointing. I asked for feedback, and it was all good.

I have just finished an exam which went alright, so as long as I pass, I am happy it's a year three unit as well.

Murry river ice cream is on special @ENKELI

@Birdofparadise8 yes I saw that it was on special!

I'm sitting in my car waiting for my brother at the moment so this will be brief.

There is one person at my work who has deliberately ignored me all day yesterday and today and is going out of her way to.laugh and joke with the other 3 girls, one of which she doesn't even like.

I have no friends and I'm feeling very lonely. My crazy cat friend is busy with her other friends this weekend too.

Anyway I'll chat more later tonight xx

I'm sorry that is happening to you @ENKELI

Can you speak to them on Monday about why they are behaving like that?

I'm sorry your crazy cat lady friend is busy.

I know loneliness is very hard, but you have me here. I'm not going anywhere.

We can chat over the weekend if you like.

Okay, I'll be here. I don't have anything to do tonight. I'm so happy that the exam is over.

@Birdofparadise8 I'm home now.

You will ace the exam my princess, you are one smart cookie.

Trying to talk to the ring leader at work will only make things worse. I told HR that she didn't support me last night when I had to work back until 6.30. She sat on her butt and did nothing, then told HR that she helped me. I told HR she didn't.

I'm just hyper sensitive at the moment with everything, I've got no one except you to talk to and I hate laying out my complaints.

We have a long weekend so I have 3 days with nothing on. I miss having friends to catch up with.

What are you up to?

Sorry you didn't get the hospital job, are there any other positions you're looking at?

I had an exam today two more to go @ENKELI

Its okay @ENKELI vent to me like im in the room with you.

Im sorry HR didnt help is there anyone else you can talk to.

You and me both Enkeli dont have anyone to see either. Hey maybe you will bd free for chat on sunday.

Im just watch young sheldon.

Yes mum and i are. It is hard as there was nothing wrong with my interview or application.

@Birdofparadise8 so why were they dumb enough not to give you the hospital job? Their loss that's for sure.

I'm surfing Netflix, looking for something to watch.

Trying to get the work situation changed would be like you trying to get your room mates to be friends with you. I'm just going to go and do my job and hope I learn to cope with the change in behaviour.

I hope to chat on Sunday, since Monday is a holiday I don't have to worry about baking.

What did you have for dinner? I'm thinking about doing scrambled eggs. Nice and easy and I love scrambled eggs!

The Blues are 4th on the ladder, you must be so excited!! And they are beating the cats which I love!

My pharmacist is an Essendon supporter and he's loving being 2nd. I am not so secretly supporting Carlton first and Essendon 2nd tee he he😁

So how has your week been my princess? Have there been some good moments?

You're still having weekly psych visits I hope. Do you think it's helping?

And what about KHL?

I'm thinking about contacting Open Arms again, which is the mental health team for Veteran Affairs. I just hope I can find someone close to where I live. Finishing work after 5pm each night makes it difficult to schedule regular appointments during the week.

How is your hip at the moment? I hope it's not causing you pain 🥰👑💐

Hahahah yes there loss, but I was kinda happy though because I didn't want to start work at 6:30 and would have to leave at 5:30 to get there on time.

Have you watched Young Sheldon? It makes me laugh so much.

Yay, it would be great if you could join.

So, do you have a four-day break?

I had a chicken wrap from the shnizel place since my exam finished at 5:30 I wasn't going to cook sweet and sour chicken from scratch I will do it tomorrow night.

Yes, they won last night, but after the rest of the week, they will drop to anywhere from 5th to 7th, so it's not that great. They really need to win next week.

Haha, you make me laugh. What will you do next week, then Carlton vs Essendon?

It hasn't been the worst I've had recently, but still not where I want it to be.

Yes I am, he is concerned about the uni break and about the financial side of things.

Where you around when I was crying on the phone to my mum about them not having money and if they would pay for my psych? Anyway, I told him what had happened, how mum was supportive, that she would rebalance things, and that she knew it was important for my MH to see him.

He kept asking, though, how long she would be financially able to do that because he said it wouldn't be good for me if I had to stop because she couldn't afford it abruptly. I don't think that would happen.

I haven't used KHL this week. I didn't think I needed it and I also needed to study for today's exams. I will speak to her next week, but I think I will change frequency with her as I don't think I need her once a week as well.

Yes, that would be hard. Is there any way you could just work a half day so you can have all your appointments then, like GP, psych, etc?

Oh yes it's been interesting I see my osteo tomorrow so I will see what she says. @ENKELI

@Birdofparadise8 I'll support Carlton of course!! Lol!

I will have to see how I go with appointments and such. If I need to I will just say I have to leave early and miss ring leader can suck lemons because I sure as heck wouldn't tell her why I need to leave early. She'd blab to everyone no doubt.

It's a 3 day weekend, Monday is WA Day, used to be called Foundation day.

At least you don't have to get up early! Mind you I used to be up at 5.30 every morning for my last job. I actually prefer starting early so there's time to do things in the evening. Of course you then have to go to bed early, arrgh!

I'm praying 🙏 something comes up for you soon.

I remember you telling me about your mum and the payments for psych. Hopefully you won't have to worry about that and it sounds like mum will make sure you get to see your psych when you need to.

That's good that you're able to reduce your KHL appointments too. See, you're improving even when you don't feel.you are 🤗

I have seen excerpts of Young Sheldon but haven't watched a full episode. Sheldon used to annoy me in Big Bang so I will probably check it out and see what I think.

I'm thinking I might go for a walk tomorrow, there are some really nice walking trails not too far away. I'm hoping it might help my sadness.

So aside from osteo do you have anything else on tomorrow?