Not Coping

@Birdofparadise8 I am feeling the same way at the moment and it's going to take some hard work on my part to get through the next couple of months with upcoming events.

It just hit me today out of nowhere. I wish I could sleep.until June and miss April and May.

I wish we had a better understanding of how our brains work and why some of us suffer when others walk through life happily destroying others.

And if I hear that as a Christian it's my fault for feeling this way I will scream.

I'm sorry you are struggling so much @ENKELI

Are there specific dates for when things happened with the ex-friend?

You don't have to share if you wish not to.

thats huge @ENKELI , 😔 💜 Im so sorry to hear what has happened; its so mystifying and very confusing - I can understand the shock, loss and hurt that this has resulted from this 💜

Please dont feel bad about talking - this is what we are all here for, and I think its a good thing to get it off your chest 🙂

And I just want to say Im really sorry that even mentioning it raises your anxiety to heightened levels; please do the routine that works best for you to look after yourself, wont you sweetness? 💜 If that is a bit of medication support, or snuggling with a doona and a hot cuppa, you take good care of you xx

One thing to keep in mind is that here, you are amongst friends, and we all care about your wellbeing, and hold space for you 🌺

@Birdofparadise8 24th & 25th were the worst days. ANZAC day is highly emotional for me because my grandfather was k*lled in WW2 and my dad is a Vietnam Veteran. She chose this day to tell me she no longer wants anything to do with me knowing how hard the 25th is for me. 24th is her birthday

Oh @ENKELI

I'm so sorry. That is just awful. I'll be here with you.

You won't be alone in this.

@Former-Member thank you.

That all happened in April, then in August I was bullied into resigning from my job.

I've been trying to get work since the beginning of the year. I was going to go east to look after my dad but that fell through in November.

I need to find work as my mortgage is 2 months past due and I can't sit around doing nothing but I feel like I'm incapable of keeping it together for an interview.

What I'd really love to do is pack my car, crate my cat and take off for a trip around the state. If wishes were horses...!

that sounds like a really good and sensible way to go @creative_writer 🙂 xx

@Birdofparadise8 thanks princess.

This is usually when I retreat and stay away from the forum but I'm trying to develop healthy coping skills

Oh, I am so sorry things are piling up @ENKELI xx 💜

I can understand the load youre under, and I hope things can start to get better, with the pendulum swinging the other way very soon!

I wondered if the job videos post I tagged @Birdofparadise8 might be helpful?

I will go edit it with your username tagged 🙂 xx

Stopping in to say hey @ENKELI & @Birdofparadise8, and wanted to offer a listening ear (or... listening eyes? 😅) cos it sounds like things are pretty rough right now.

@ENKELI sounds like your Flight response is kicking up a notch, totally understandable with anniversaries coming up, and with what sounds like a series of very hurtful events that have not been resolved. Sometimes not knowing why someone has hurt us or left us can be more painful than any reason they might give.

It's definitely not your fault. There's always so many complex factors that shape how we might respond to things, and all of us are only ever doing the best we can with what we've got. I'm glad you have this space where you can be open, I hope you do vent as needed hun and don't keep it all bottled up - there's no need to retreat if you feel that getting stuff off your chest could be helpful. You won't be burdening any of us here, it's a safe space. And of course please don't hesitate to reach out to us (team@saneforums.org) if there's anything you might need during this time.

@Birdofparadise8 sounds like you are sitting with some heavy feelings hun, I am sorry that the depression is feeling extra intense. Are you feeling unsafe at all? Is it helping to chat with folks here or is there something else that might help you regulate at the moment? Here for ya 💜