Not Coping

Well I’m here for you @creative_writer

and I’m sure everyone else is too.
what do you mean by engulfment?

Here for you too @creative_writer

Sounds yumm @Birdofparadise8

Sometimes an early night is what we need @Shaz51. I hope you are feeling okay today my friend 💕🌷

Yeah, the banana bread is good @Shaz51

Oh, okay, I'm sorry you feel that way. @creative_writer

Hi @ENKELI, I just wanted to let you know I'll only be around until 10 for a few weeks.

@Birdofparadise8 howdy! My exciting life would cause you to be jealous, honestly...NOT!

Today I did some washing, picked up a parcel, and defrosted the mini freezer. It's an old cranky thing that likes to freeze up so it needs defrosting regularly. Then the second fridge with the freezer that my brother bought second hand needs cleaning before putting food in it and the shelves in the main freezer have been cleaned as well. I am now sitting in my living room, Foxtel on and I'm surrounded by boxes of stuff for my diamond art. I am praying a second floor will miraculously appear on my house so I have storage for all of my stuff. Trying to downsize 2 households of furniture into one is proving difficult, even after donating a huge amount of stuff to good will.

So give me a run down. It sounds like you've been miserable, which is sadly not unusual for you. Have you been taking on the positive affirmations and suggestions people are offering?

Sometimes we get so caught up in our misery or depression that it becomes comfortable and we don't have the will power or inclination to change it. Hope that makes sense.

I just want to see you doing better my love, you don't deserve the pain you're going through 👑💕🌷

Hi @ENKELI

It's so good to be able to sit down and chat with you finally.

Why do you need to downsize two houses worth of stuff into one?

How many freezers do you have?

I'm doing diamond art right now as well in between my lab report. I thought it was done, but not quite.

A few external things happened, so that didn't help with how I've been feeling.

I told you about the pool reference. Well, after that, I don't know; my mood got worse and worse. I started developing SI. It's just not been a good week. However, I've been alright today.

What do you mean by suggestions people have given me?

I've been listening to music, I've been to the pool, I've kept busy with uni. I'm in the process of setting a date to see my aunt and uncle for dinner, my friend from uni this Sunday and the group of girls from the brunch a while back. We will go to the Melbourne Zoo.

Yes I must of needed it @ENKELI , I fell asleep straight away for a few hours then had broken sleep from then

OK today my friend 🧡

@Birdofparadise8 I am still trying to find room for the furniture I had when I was living with other people last year. A lot of my things have been in storage but now I can't afford to pay for storage so I've had to find room in my little house to put extra furniture. I have a nice dining suite that I don't want to get rid of but am not sure if it will fit into my kitchen as the house I was in previously was much bigger. It had a games room for starters and my house doesn't!
So the suggestions I meant are things like writing down words of affirmation on post it notes, other self soothing mechanisms that people on the forum have suggested. I wondered if you had tried any of these things.

I am frustrated - not at you, just remember that - that you are still having to go through the dark times.

For me, I am doing really well and the new meds have kicked in so my mood swings have almost disappeared, my depression has lessened and my anxiety has dropped. All I have to do is curb my need to over spend on things I can't afford - typical BPD behaviour.

Talk to me, tell me what you want to talk about lovely, I'm all ears x