Not Coping

So the building's front door has a coded keypad to unlock it @Snowie

Then you go past his room, a second one, and there is a waiting area, bathroom staff room, and upstairs, which has more rooms.

It's embaricing because his room is right at the front door and you can hear people enter the building and enter the pin. It's so embarrassing because I get there early to try and undo the door and I can't. I try a few times and then I give up. I feel so annoyed because then he thinks I'm not there and also goes over with the other session as he didn't know I'm there. So then I feel bad.

This lock is bigger than Ben-Hur. It's just four numbers and a hash and I can't do it. I don't know why. It's stupid I'm stupid.

Did you see the song I posted about earlier @Snowie

oh I get it now @Birdofparadise8

Has he actually ever shown you how to use the keypad? Perhaps you might be able to ask him.

Is there a number you can call if you can't get in?

No I didn't see the song.

Yes and it works when he is near me but when he goes it doesn't @Snowie

We spent like 10 min and got locked out one day there is a key at the door I asked if I could use it and he didn't say anything.

We went out and i did it and it wouldn't open and then when I had the end of my session i did it and he stood near the door and it worked but then the next time I tried on my own it didn't work.

Ah okay would you like to hear it I can share it again.

Sounds like it is a bit hit and miss @Birdofparadise8

Is the song something you like or you can relate too?

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@Birdofparadise8 wrote:

I don’t think my lights will turn back on.

@Former-Member @lavenderhaze @Snowie @Blackbird11

Call your mum Noah Kahan

Call Your Mum

Oh, you're spiralin' again
The moment right before it ends, you're most afraid of
But, don't you cancel any plans
'Cause I won't let you get the chance to never make them

Stayed on the line with you the entire night
'Til you let it out and let it in

Don't let this darkness fool you
All lights turned off can be turned on
I'll drive, I'll drive all night
I'll call your mom

Oh, dear, don't be discouraged
I've been exactly where you are
I'll drive, I'll drive all night
I'll call your mom

I'll call your mom

Waiting room, no place to stand
His greatest fears and wringing hands and the loudest silence
If you could see yourself like this
If you could see yourself like this, you'd have never tried it

Stayed on the line with you the entire night
'Til you told me that you had to go

Don't let this darkness fool you
All lights turned off can be turned on
I'll drive, I'll drive all night
I'll call your mom

Oh, dear, don't be discouraged
I've been exactly where you are
I'll drive, I'll drive all night
I'll call your mom

Medicate, meditate, swear your soul to Jesus
Throw a punch, fall in love, give yourself a reason
Don't wanna drive another mile wonderin' if you're breathin'
So, won't you stay, won't you stay, won't you stay with me?

Medicate, meditate, save your soul for Jesus
Throw a punch, fall in love, give yourself a reason
Don't wanna drive another mile without knowin' you're breathin'
So, won't you stay, won't you stay, won't you stay with me?

Don't let this darkness fool you
All lights turned off can be turned on
I'll drive, I'll drive all night
I'll call your mom

Oh, dear, don't be discouraged
I've been exactly where you are
I'll drive, I'll drive all (night) night
I'll call your mom

I'll call your mom

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Here you go @Snowie

Yes I don't feel my light will turn back on.

I've never heard of that song before @Birdofparadise8

Does it help that you can relate to it?

What do you take from it?

It makes me want to cry @Snowie

I like it, but it's also sad.

Did you listen to it?

No I haven't listened to it @Birdofparadise8

I will give it a go tomorrow morning.

Sorry but will have to say goodnight. Need to go pick my son up from work then will probably head to bed myself.

I hope you are able to get some sleep yourself tonight.

Okay, all good @Snowie

Have a good night.