Hehe! It’s not easy @Birdofparadise8 to try to figure out a persons attributes, that’s for sure 🙌🏻☺️🌺
I’m female, too 🌺
yes, I thought you were female 🙂🌺
Indeed; bradycardia is a very slow heart rate. This sometimes results in changes to the rhythm, and the particular events I have are called premature ventricular contractions (PVC’s) which can happen in a row, resulting in compounded limitations on blood circulation. Combine that with coronary artery spasm (heart muscle gets very little blood flow), the heart only begrudgingly does it’s job through sheer willpower coming from the autonomic nervous system (sympathetic branches), which increase blood pressure and stroke volume as a compensatory measure… I saw briefly your wonderful experimental pics, and I thought you might like a bit of biological science behind the pathology 💜🙂🌺
The intriguing highlights of brain injury: I couldn’t recall faces, or recognise my own reflection, and I didn’t know what a toothbrush was for or that toothpaste should be used to brush your teeth instead of cleaning the toilet hehe 😁
I used to have brain auto resets several times a day: I would go blank within a split second, and forget where I was, what I was supposed to be doing, and be unable to recognise my surroundings - imagine how many times I got lost driving the car, and ended up in someone’s driveway asking them if they can tell me if I live there or not 😆👏🏻
“Oh, right, so you don’t know me? Cool, no worries, I’ll just be on my way and see what happens next. Thanks for your time” 😁
Those adventures were something unique, that’s for sure ☺️🌺
I trained my brain to keep focus over the next 4 years (aka stop bluescreening), then I went to uni, and trained it some more 🙌🏻🙂
I learned to remember faces (taking particular note about uniqueness like a streak of grey hair, a freckle, or a set of dimples), and I learned to walk without falling down (or looking like I’d had 5 too many vodkas).
But the most odd thing was trying to discern the difference between who I was and what was a symptom.. I thought many hours about how I could tell the difference between my bluescreen events and my personality.. I had to search hard to remember what made me laugh, what made me cry, and what kind of person I am - and not considering myself as ‘someone I used to be’… 🙂💜🌺
Anyway, that’s that for now 🙂🌺
oh - yes; I do understand that you meant you cannot speak with your mum about it, I’m so sorry dearest 💜🌺🫂
I hope you feel heard and valued here 💜🙂🌺