@PizzaMondo thank you for your lovely words. My community consists of everyone I interact with on these forums. My brother is really good when I need him. He is a 6ft bear and never hugged anyone until I was diagnosed. Now he'll come and hug if he feels I need one.
The only complaint I have with my brother is that he is a male! Lol, what I mean is that men always try to fix things and I've had to tell him sometimes I just want someone to listen to me. He's getting better though.
I was stupid and gave up my life for my ex friend and Godchildren and lost many friends because I put her and the kids before anyone else except my mum and brother. Now the friends I did have are too busy, have moved on or basically told me "you reap what you sow" meaning you gave up us now we are giving up you.
The only true friend I have is the one I've known since I was 5. She is also great at listening. (@Birdofparadise8 she's my crazy cat lady friend) And because she is an amateur actress she always laughs and says "I'm an actress, of course it's all about me so there is no way I'd spread what you told me!" She says it as a joke but I trust her with my life.
So I am usually alone, especially while I am looking for a job. My brother works also so aside from my cat (and he only talks to me when he's hungry!) I usually go the whole day without seeing or talking to anyone.
I tried a couple of friend groups with similar interests but one didn't work out and the other one I am too self conscious to go to one of their meet ups.
I just want to find a job and maybe make a friend or 2 in the meantime 😔
