Not Coping

I get that, but no one ever does. I'm not joking when I say I always have to message someone first @creative_writer
I hope everything goes well with the dentist. I need to book mine in as well.

Hmm, radical acceptance. I've heard of it but never looked into it.

Don't get me wrong they are very supportive when I do get to talk to them, It's just the times when I feel I have to do all the work and say hey can we talk I'm struggling. Instead, they could at least just send a text once in a while to see how I am.

But really, I don't get how I'm not used to it when this exact thing happens in all my relationships. It's the same as when I was at school.

I'm always the one to think of the other person, but they don't think of me.

I get people are busy, but like nothing at all sucks. @Former-Member

@Birdofparadise8

I'm glad to hear they are supportive when you do talk to them.

I hope that you find some people in your life who will check in without you doing it first. You do deserve that, for sure. As much as it sucks, on the flip side, you sound like a super considerate and caring person to be around. Those are some great personal qualities to have in this world! Would it be helpful to extend some words of comfort or affirmations to yourself? I have found it can be quite healing and also critical in times when we are feeling isolated. It's OK to acknowledge that you are feeling hurt and wish things could be different.

I was also wondering if you have ever let loved ones know how it feels when you don't hear from them or even directly asked if they could check in once in a while. Sometimes, having these vulnerable conversations can open the door to deeper connections with others. What do you think?

I highly doubt I'll find someone who will message me first.

In my 20 years of being here, it's only my parents who don't count as they have to. Well, mine are overbearing, so on the other end.

But friends and other people, nope, never.

Sorry, affirmation is really not my thing. I'm so bad at it. I'm feeling a lot of negative things right now.

Hmm, I haven't. That would be scary. I'd seem needy asking them. I don't want that. I already feel guilty enough as it is when I talk to them.

I really want to have a chat, but they are so busy. My aunt even said so last year that they might not be around as much and I shouldn't rely on them. I was upset when she said that. She said it was because of work. It made me so guilty after that. Even though they've said I'm not a burden, it gets very confusing. Unless I misinterpreted what she said, then that could be it, but I'm sure she said that.

I can't help not having friends and being lonely and sad. I can't help being suicidal. It's not in my control. I just want it to stop, but it won't. Everything seems pointless.

I've finished my essay; I just need to format it and send it to Studiosity. They will do a check for grammar and stuff. @Former-Member

@Birdofparadise8 , people show they care in various different ways. I know it hurts to feel that you always have to reach out, and that’s valid. We do often have to look at our thoughts from an alternative perspective too while acknowledging our feelings. I hope you haven’t taken offence it the times I didn’t respond, I didn’t mean to be cut off, uni had exhausted me last year and I had moments when I was too emotionally overwhelmed to support. I did think about you on the days I didn’t speak to you and wished you the best 💖

Yeah, I know they do @creative_writer.

Thanks for saying that. I wasn't just directly meaning here. I was meaning around my whole life.

I hope I haven't upset you or made you annoyed at me.

How did the dentist go?

I'm sorry I'm needy.

That's good @creative_writer