Not Coping

Thank you @ENKELI

I guess but who knows when I'll see them again. Not the last time I saw my aunt for dinner but when we went to a night market she mentioned something about herself and my uncle being busy and not being able to see me or something. So I don't want to bother them. They've done so much for me.

Are they supportive of you @Birdofparadise8? Maybe just email them to see how they are going and that you'd like to see them when they are free. I suggest email because it's not so confronting as a phone call.

You seem to be so sensitive and I know that feeling! I take everything personally and rejection is a huge trigger to me. It takes me forever to get over the feeling of worthlessness and being unwanted when I ask to spend time with someone and they say no. I have learnt to remember that it isn't because they don't want to spend time with me but because they are busy.

I've had a difficult relationship with my mum though not like you and your mum. I was always too scared to say no to her and would make myself physically ill if I had to do something she demanded of me and I didn't want to do it.

What you need to do is get a pad of post it notes and write affirmations on them, then stick them on your mirror and around your room so you can read them and remember how amazing and awesome you are.

I am smart
I am clever
I am loved just for being who I am
I am wanted

I am good enough

My perspective is unique. It’s important and it counts

Yes they are @ENKELI

My aunts a counsellor so I would hope so.

I feel like I'm wasting there time and a burden.

Yes rejection is the worst. It's my main trigger. I feel like I'm being stabbed.

Maybe I should positive self-talk is so hard.

I don't know what to do not having a a hug. It's like this feeling in me of needing comfort and it keeps getting bigger.

@Birdofparadise8 me too, I feel like I'm being stabbed also. It's so painful. It sounds like your aunt would want to help you so why don't you think about reaching out to her?

Definitely get the post its and write the affirmations down. I did it so that I didn't have to try and manage my self-talk all the time. Put them in places where you'll see them.

Mmm I guess @ENKELI

I feel bad.

Yeah I'll have a go tomorrow at them.

What are you doing tomorrow?

I need to go to Centrelink, Kmart and I need to work on an assignment.

@Birdofparadise8 good! Lol! It helped me so I hope it will help you too. And definitely email your aunt.

Tomorrow is going to be 42 degrees so I will be staying inside and trying to keep cool. I will probably apply for some more jobs too.

What's the assignment on? When does Uni start back up?

I don't know how you cope with the heat @ENKELI

How many do you have around your place?

It's for my criminology unit.

Not unit the 26th of Feb I think.

The causation of sexual assault will be discussed using criminological theories such as General Strain Theory, Rational Choice Theory and Self-Control theory. Thus concluding that the General Strain Theory is the best theory to explain the causation of sexual assault.

I'm on my phone so I can't put in trigger thing could someone do that please. I don't want anyone getting upset by my essay. Only if it needs to I don't know. Thank you!

@Birdofparadise8 I will probably take a few cold showers during the day. It's going to be over 40 until Saturday so I am not looking forward to the week. I wish I was working, then at least I'd be in air conditioning that works.

Wow that is heavy duty study! Really interesting topic and it's got me thinking how I would present it.

That's true. Can you go to a cafe or somewhere where you know an aircon is?

yeh a bit. I'm studying Nutrtion so a real train track. It's been very interesting to vs honest to understand how and why people do such awful things.

I've written 1300 of 2000 words.

I think I should go to bed now it's nearly tomorrow hahah.

Thank you for chating with me. You've made me feel less alone.

@ENKELI

@Birdofparadise8 glad I could help. Hope you sleep well 🙂

I might go to the shopping centre and get an iced coffee, sit in the cool for a few hours.