Not Coping

He said no @creative_writer @Bow @tyme

I didn't day it would make me feel rejected he just mentioned how it is a power imbalance

Nice @creative_writer

Did your parents migrate of something?

He also moved our sessions to fortnightly @tyme @creative_writer @Bow

We didn't really work on anything I mostly just told him things that had happened.

I did the colouring in.

Maybe I should have told him I felt rejected.

I just asked what his opinion is on hugging a client and he mentioned something about his supervisor and he said he doesn't. He asked why and I said because I don't get any. We didn't really talk about it after he said no. I didn't want to get upset.

I have a meeting for a volunteer thing I'm doing to help older people in the community.

Then I'll go home and cry most likely.

I know it's just hard when I crave it so much.

I have a vision that someone would give me a hug and I can cry and they will comfort me. I've never had that @creative_writer

Hello @ENKELI

Thankyou so much for such a brave & compassionate reply. Thankyou for saying you loved my poem. Looking back, I have hated it the last few days. I had so much shame for posting it. Today, I had resigned myself to 'we live, make mistakes, we learn better for next time.'

Now - my perspective has changed again, thanks to you! I think, you could read between the lines & understand the intent.

I think I could write a much better poem.

I think the intent was perfect - it was about not feeling like I was small & needed to please anyone. That people would accept me as I am. Without a mask. It takes so much of my energy to be what I think others want. I have terrible believing that anyone could accept me for me ... That I didn't have to TRY !!???

I absolutely love your reply. I love that you have given me knowledge of your name. I agree, it is a beautiful word. Atypical.

ENKELI

It sounds so pretty.

You write beautifully. I love your awareness & explanation of the fragility human experience.

I was also picturing those mosaic pots as I was reading.

I think it is mature & wise to have awareness & acknowledge that more often than not we are left alone. This is so difficult to accept.

I have lots of anger regarding feelings, actual real life , incomprehensible, neglect. I think it has made me hyper - caring (at the expense of myself) - so many contributing factors, as to why, I put others first.

That feeling of wanting to protect - I don't want anyone to go thru what I have.

I need to learn how to direct this overpowering intent with greater efficacy.

I am happy to read you are enjoying forums.

Thankyou for beautiful reply

I have my aunt, uncle and friend but I don't see them that much anymore @creative_writer

Yes I trust him.

I just wanted one so badly.