Not Coping

Thank you @Birdofparadise8

I'm so glad you're here, you mean a lot to me too 💚

Hey, you really have a very analytical mind @Birdofparadise8 - not a good or bad thing - just an observation.

As someone who studies health and nutrition etc, how much our bodies need is dependent on so many factors. Someone might come to a meal having snacked just before. Others may come with an empty stomach. Other factors include:

- exercise

- stress levels

- whether they like the food

- time of life (youth vs elderly)

Maybe it's not about comparing, but looking at what your needs are in terms of food/energy and managing that accordingly?

Aww I'm getting emotional @Blackbird11

Haha, am I thinking into it too much @tyme

I just feel so guilty, though.

I know all the nutrition stuff, and yeah, maybe they had a big lunch that day, but the guilt consumes me.

Hugs for you @Birdofparadise8

I am off to bed, hope you rest well and tomorrow is a new beginning for you ✨️

Night @Blackbird11

I see my psychologist tomorrow, so I'll see how intense that is. Have a good sleep. Talk tomorrow if you're around.

Thanks @Birdofparadise8

What time is your appointment? I'll check in with you after 😄

12:00 pm goes for an hour @Blackbird11

Thank you!

Hey @Birdofparadise8 💚

How did you go? How is your vibe today?

Hi @Blackbird11

It was alright. I'm just not very good at being vulnerable with him. We talked about how I feel like I'm a bad person and not worthy. We talked about how my mum wouldn't let me have space and would then guilt me into what she wanted and how that affects me now because I don't know how to be alone. We talked about me being dismissive of how I feel because of the bullying and my mum. He told me to give myself a hug which was really weird.

I was very anxious this morning I felt a bit nauseous before the appointment.

We also talked about going around in a circle. I felt pretty stupid at times, but oh well. I also mentioned how I feel embarrassed sharing things and how I feel he might judge me even though I know he won't.

He asked if I would prefer to colour in or something in our session I'm not sure how that would help.

I’ll tag @tyme as well. I thought you'd like to know about it and how I mentioned the loneliness and because I never got to experience it at home I struggle with it now.

How are you both going?

I'm just on the train I need to go to Priceline and the supermarket.