Not Coping

@tyme are you around at all?

KHL won't even talk to me what I'm supposed to do now. Because I have a session with my regular counsellor, I can only talk to them when I'm suicidal

How is that fair

I told the man I was speaking to that I don't have anyone else to talk to and I'll just go and cry. and he said take care like what the fuck.

@tyme please are you free.

@Birdofparadise8 ,

You okay?

No. RO suggested that I contact KHL, so I did, and they wouldn't let me talk to them unless I was suicidal.

He asked if I had anyone else to talk to, and I said no and that I'd go cry now. He said to take care.

How bad is that? I wanted to talk to someone, and I couldn't. Now I can't stop crying @tyme

I shouldn't have even contacted them. @tyme

I'm so sorry @Birdofparadise8 . I wonder why? It must be so hard to have this happen.

Have you been told beforehand why they may have said you cannot speak to your regular counsellor?

People on the forums care. Sometimes, they may not know what you say, but trust me, they care.

I hear you are lonely at the moment. Can you think of any resources within you to help you at the moment?

Well, with KHL last year, they started a trial phone counselling service, and my counsellor was picked. she could then pick one client to use the service on which she chose me, so we would schedule a phone call each week, and she would call me.

She said I could call at other times, so I don't know what happened today.

It's never happened before during the trial, as I haven't needed to contact other than then.

I would have been able to speak with her if she was working, but I knew she wasn't on today and was hoping to talk to someone about why I'm feeling like I am right now.

I don't have any capacity right now for anything. I'm really upset right now @tyme

You finish shortly anyway. So I don't know what I'll do now. That's not your fault; it's just the bad timing of when I got through with KHL.

That's really tough. Without asking to speak to your regular, will they not answer and speak to you at all? @Birdofparadise8 Sorry, I don't know what KHL do.

In a way, that's special that you could be part of the trial. Is there anything you have worked on with your counsellor to help you at this time?

Only if I'm suicidal and in crisis, according to them @tyme

I told the man whom I spoke to, and he said I was only in crisis. I said I was not, but I was really struggling and feeling distressed. he checked with his supervisor and said that he couldn't talk to me and that I should speak to someone else. So then I broke down and have been sobbing since @tyme

I never thought something like this would happen. Yeah, well, I'm not sure what we've been working on. A bit about values.