Not Coping

Why do things have to be so hard? I want this to stop. The emotional pain.

I'm safe, by the way.

Why do I feel so bad?

Not sure. Tell me why @Birdofparadise8

Hahaha very funny @tyme

I don't know. Today should be good.

I had a relaxing morning and had a shower which has been hard to do this week. Motivation has been very low. I went to Bunnings to get some textured art things.

But no, I've been crying earlier today, and now I'm sad again. Like why. I don't want to be sad. I have nothing to be sad about. Yet I'm so sad @tyme.

What textured art stuff did you get? @Birdofparadise8

Joint compound to put on a canvas and then you spread it out and make different patterns in it, but I think I prefer modeling paste and it's safer @tyme

Like with the dust and toxins.

Lol... I'm clueless... I'm not a paint arty person. I like making things with functional needs... when I paint or do a diamond art, the first thing I say to myself is "what do i do with the finished product?" @Birdofparadise8

I don't like having stuff around, hence I don't make things that don't have use. I know they say it's the process, not the product, but when it comes to paintings, no one would even want one of my paintings if it was free!!!

Aww, I'm sure if you did something, someone would like it. Textured art/painting is fun.

Though the process is fun at times, I bet myself up when it doesn't look right @tyme

What are you doing tomorrow?

I don't do painting painting with a canvas. I can't even draw a stick figure @tyme