Not Coping

How are you today @Blackbird11?

What have you been up to?

I've had breakfast and done some washing. It's in the dryer now. I'm just doing a face mask.

I'm starting to get long hairs on my face, and I can't get them lazed as they are blonde. I always laughed at my mum when she would get them, but they were black. I'm only 20. I can't believe I'm getting them.

I might need to take up dermaplaning. Do you do that at all?

I'm doing ok @Birdofparadise8

A face mask sounds nice, I've never heard of dermaplaning.

I have been to the iris show exhibition.

That sounds cool @Blackbird11

Ah okay. It's like shaving but for females to get rid of peach fuzz.

Did you want me to tell you about your question about moving to Vic?

Very pretty flowers @Birdofparadise8

Oh ok, sounds interesting.

Yes if you are up to it 😊

I can't see what you posted, so I'll have a look once it's up.

Well, it's very different over here. At first, I was excited because I was moving states, going to meet new people and being in a different environment. I don't think it's been how I hoped.

I've made one friend. I met a group of people who never stayed together, and others in my classes just didn't want to stay in contact.

I eat dinner alone every night unless I'm seeing someone. Who would I see other than family and my one friend?

I don't know anyone in my building, and my two neighbours I see once a week, if not even less. Of who we don't speak. Maybe a smile and that's it. Sometimes it's hard to get even that around here.

I miss my friends at home and family, but I do like how busy it is over here. I'm sure I'll find my people at some stage.

I don't want to go back home. Spending a week with my parents is more than enough. I like having my own space to do what I want.

I also can't go back because I won't be able to do my degree at UTAS, so I have to stay, which I want to do. I need to make adjustments to how I see things.

Also, my rapid decline in MH didn't help. I've been in hospital twice this year. So that's great.

It's been tough moving on my MH with not knowing anyone.

Overall, even though I'm saying a lot of negative things about it, it will just take time to meet people and develop connections. I'm sure they will happen.

My uncle told me when I moved to the USA for two years. It took him that whole time to meet people and feel like he belonged. I've been here nine months, so it's just starting. @Blackbird11

Sorry if that sounds sad. I guess it is a bit. I wish it was a happier time, but sadly, no.

The flower is very pretty @Blackbird11

Yes I guess it will take time to meet people, it's not an easy thing to do. You are doing well to have made one friend. And it will also take time to settle in, that's been challenged by your hospital visits. You are doing good at @Birdofparadise8 it just takes time.

Thank you @Blackbird11

One step at a time. Though very slow steps.

Not feeling that great right now.

What are you up to now?

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step - lao tzu

I just drove to a local reserve and will do a short walk @Birdofparadise8

Sounds nice @Blackbird11

I'm going to go to Priceline finally.