Not Coping

Hey @Birdofparadise8 ,

Not, it's not about changing the event, but changing the reaction and how you viewed it? This was part of the mentalisation therapy I did for so long.

It's about recognising how you felt then, then how you could think about it. I'll have to see if I can find a diagram to help you with the mentalising process. But please note that I'm not trying to mentalise you or your situation. It's just a different way of seeing it.

My reaction ended up with me sitting on the bathroom floor sobbing for two hours. One because of her and also something with SANE, love being told to go away. So helpful.

I couldn't move; I was frozen. It was awful. I couldn't change anything about it. I did the best I could until the distress came down to a manageable level. @tyme

Can I tell you how it goes with my psych @tyme?

I see him tomorrow.

Hello @Blackbird11 @Melbcoffeesnob @creative_writer @Kyle1 @fluffylight @Bow @outlander @Shaz51

How is everyone tonight?

hi @Birdofparadise8

I'm a bit blue 2nite.

Are you feeling better,?

I'm sorry, @Kyle1. What is happening?

Me, yeah, no, not better. I have been sobbing tonight. I think I'm screwed. I see my psych tomorrow, so that will be interesting.

yeah... I don't know. @Birdofparadise8

Just...down... I went from irritated. To angry. To sad.

I think for your sake, it's a good thing your seeing support tomorrow.

On your stay as an inpatient, did they start you on any new meds. You know how starting new meds can upset the apple cart for a while...,?

Ah okay, I get that @Kyle1

Yeah, I'm on a mood stabiliser (L). I have a tremor now in my hands, so that's annoying. I also got an increase with the antidepressant.

I haven't noticed anything good. I thought Friday wouldn't have been as bad as the L is supposed to not make the lows or highs as strong. I'll just need to give it time.

This psych has been really good. This will be my 5th session, and I've made more progress with him than I did with my old psych whom I had 17 sessions. I have a longer session tomorrow so that will be good. I need to go into a lot of detail about what happened on Friday. I have a print out of messages to show him.

How is your psych going?

I'm well pleased and remain optimistic with my psych... I think I have 8 or 9 sessions left, and every confidence that she won't simply chew up the clock with me. @Birdofparadise8

I've gone through another change in meds...umm, about 4 or 5 wks ago, I think (?)

It took a bit, but they are working better than anything else so far. Just the one kind. I am having these days of feeling like "finally! I'll begin to move ahead today. I can feel that I want to!"

And I get so pleased with that feeling, I inevitably wind up indulging myself in something leisurely, more than pragmatic! So...still a way to go yet, but I'm hoping I'm upon that bend in the road 🤞

one or two days here and there are still testy... but feel I can cop those on the chin and not become annihilated in the process. That's new...

I hope 2nite takes that route.

I guess I'm just feeling pitiful and lonely once again. (Story of my life)

That's so good to hear @Kyle1

I hope this med change will be the one you need. A good psych also helps a lot.

It's okay not every day has to be perfect. I know that for a fact.