Not Coping

Yeah I know it was so intense @outlander

He kept challenging everything I said.

How are you?

Hey also said my current psych and KHL are mollycoddling me @outlander

Hey @Birdofparadise8 , wassup? I was just thinking whether you were online today.

Hey @tyme

Have you had a job promotion that says community lead and your name is in bright green?

Yes, I am. I met my new psych today he was nice but it was very hard. He kept challenging everything I was saying and he said my old psych and KHL are mollycoddling me.

Yes maybe @outlander

Each time we talked about something that was uncomfortable, I would laugh, and he said why are you doing that? What are you feeling, and where are you feeling it? I didn't like being asked where I felt things because I didn't really know. I still don't know. I just feel sad, angry, upset etc.

Though he said I don't have to feel uncomfortable, I'm like, well, I am, I don't know you, and I'm trying to be vulnerable.

He hit a nerve when he said what if you're not here in a month as we were talking about suicide. That really took me. He said I can't work with dead people, which I know that.

Very much agree with @outlander on this one @Birdofparadise8 - whilst it can be confronting and sometimes very uncomfortable to be challenged, sometimes that is exactly what we need. Ever heard the phrase, "All progress takes place outside of the comfort zone"? Sometimes to do the work, we have to get used to hearing difficult things, and pushing past that discomfort. I hope it ends up being a super helpful and nourishing space for you 😊

Yes, it was very uncomfortable @Jynx @outlander

It will take time to warm up to him as well and get to know his style. It's very different to all three of the psychs I've seen in the past year and a bit.

I don't know why he thinks my regular at KHL and other psych would be mollycoddling me. Do either of you know why that could be?

@outlander @Jynx @tyme

I told my parents how I want to go inpatient again. I did say how my suicidal thoughts are worse, but I didn't say anything about what happened a week and a bit ago.