Not Coping

I'm telling you because I care @Birdofparadise8 . I recognise it is hard. And it's not something we get right the first, second or third time. "Practice doesn't make perfect...perfect practice makes perfect".

Just keep going @Birdofparadise8 . You'll have to help yourself. Change the trajectory of your life and do something different. You are the author of your own story. Write the story that YOU want for yourself. I believe in you.

I thought I was already trying with like self-care, and talking to my psych and KHL @tyme.

I just want to be okay and actually like myself. I don't know where to start.

We've all had that thought "I want to die" @Birdofparadise8 . Is this what you want in the long term?

I want that right now while I'm so sad, but say, Laura, who is 25 years old, probably wouldn't @tyme

Yes, I'm not denying that SANE, ReachOut, KHL, self-care and everything else is not helping. They have their place. These are external supports.

However, internally, what's the change within you that you are willing to change? What part of your mindset do you want to change in the long term? This is a process. It's not that you can wake up saying "I'm a new person". @Birdofparadise8

I know you can do it. Believe in yourself. The real recovery means you come to a point of being 'sick of being sick'... that's what I was told... and it stuck with me.

You've got so much ahead of you. Look at how well you do in your studies. You can get a job so easily. You've made the move from Tassie by yourself. @Birdofparadise8 You have done so well already.

I hope you don't have to wait until you are in your mid-30s like I was before things changed. I hope and pray it will be sooner for you. You deserve it for yourself.

I just don't know how to change my mindset @tyme.

Uni is going well I suppose @tyme

I haven't got another job yet I've only had interviews.

You keep mentioning change. Can I ask how you changed? What did you do to get there?

It's a little voice inside that says, "I've had enough. I'm going to do what's right even if it feels wrong".

That's the only way I could change. Inside, I wanted to stay indoors and hide, but I made myself get out. That's only one example. @Birdofparadise8

But I don't hide @tyme

I still go to work, uni and see people.