PTSD and Anxiety

Hi @Ritsy57,

Welcome to the Forums. My name is FloatingFeather and I am one of the peer support workers at SANE. Thank you for sharing your story with us - I know it can be difficult in the beginning to post but know that you in a safe, anonymous space with many supportive members with varied types of lived experiences.I'm sorry to read about your car accident - that must of been very frightening. I think it's understandable that someone that has been through a serious accident would be affected in the way that you have been.

Despite what you have gone through you sound like you have a positive attitude - that's really inspiring. It's great to read that you have a supportive husband and some hobbies you really enjoy too - I always find hobbies can be a great stress release.

By way of a Forums' introduction I have linked in (at the bottom of this post) a list of our wonderful community guides. Here is a link also to chats around PTSD if you want to have a look at other posts around this topic https://saneforums.org/t5/tag/post%20traumatic%20stress%20disorder/tg-p/category-id/lived-experience-forum.

On an aside, if you want to directly chat with someone on the Forums use the @ symbol and then start typing their name directly after it. A dropdown box should appear, and you then select their name. This ensures that they are notified of any posts you mention them in.

Welcome again and keep posting - we are happy to have you onboard.

Warm wishes,

FloatingFeather

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Hi @Ritsy57 ,

Welcome to the forums. I'm sorry to hear about the accident you have mentioned.

It is comforting to know you have supports around you as well as some great hobbies!

Would you like to share what some of these hobbies may be? (no pressure though)

I've complex PTSD as a result of complex trauma I was put through by other people who'd branded me a sex offender for nearly 20 years, eventhough I've never done anything like that. I happen to have schizophrenia, be alittle odd, be LGBT and look a lot like someone who actually is a paedophile and has now been found guilty of that offense... but for nearly 20 years I was the target. My friends told me not to talk to them about it, they were useless, the only support I had was the psychologist once a month, and my psychiatrist for 20 minutes once every 6 weeks if I was lucky.

My personality died under the distress, and I find now that I'll be grieving for that personality for the rest of my life, it was a good personality. The one I have is still very good, but it's a lot darker and I have to lovingly parent it. When I give voice to my cptsd people will often unconsciously use their genuine concerns to try to stop me from talking about it, and I find I have to push those concerns to one side because my healing MUST be more important than other people's concerns. Eventhough I've every right to do that I still get very angry about the fact I'm forced to do that, and then some people will accuse me BV of being insensitive. I tell them they only care about themselves, and that they don't have any "rights" to my sensitivity, it belongs to me.

I'm sorry to hear @Abner .

You have been through a lot.

Do you have supports in place to help you through all this? It's a lot to tackle on your own.

Hi @Abner

Sorry to hear your story, you seemed very upset in September, I hope things are better for you now. Child abuse and sexual crimes are a serious matter, I don't understand your frustration, do you have problems with sexual offending or is it just stigmatisation? If you feel any desire to harm somebody else or yourself I would getting professional help before you do the wrong thing.

@Abner

It's sad that these things happen, the court of public opinion can be very harsh, and if someone starts a rumour then it can be very damaging. Moving to another place often does not work either. If you know of the person who made the claim against you I'm sure you could talk to the police, accusing somebody of something they haven't done can cause them a lot of unnecessary grief in life and you shouldn't have to be victimised in this way.