Struggling and hiding it inside.

@Loz_3647 ,

I hear you.

I'm here, listening.

tyme

I'd encourage you to have a talk to our counsellors @Loz_3647 . They are not a crisis service, but you may be able to go into more than what you can on the forums.

Perhaps you can speak to them before your situation becomes more critical? Only a suggestion. Their number is 1800 187 263. Sometimes there is a bit of a wait. They are available up until 10pm. They also have webchat.

Check out our drop-in services here https://www.sane.org/get-support/drop-in-service

Understandable you don't want to talk on the phone @Loz_3647 . You can chat here @Loz_3647 . We want you here. We may not be able to solve your problems, but we can sit and listen to each other.

When you post, I'd be happy to follow on. You can type "@" in front of my name so I get a notification. Like this @tyme . Of course, no obligation. Only if you want to. I'm not always online, but I will get your notification and respond once I'm back online.

It's probably also good to know that there is a REAL person on the forums 24/7. Moderators are on the all day, all night - not just a robot! If any time you'd like to tag a moderator, you can type @moderator .

You are not alone. Sitting with you,

tyme

Your kind of post is the reason we are here ourselves, @Loz_3647. I think I understand how you feel with the services you have tried–like they are going through the motions of listening, but not hearing, not caring, and not making an iota of difference to your situation. They just don't understand how serious the situation is or that you're begging for help. We go from pillar to post saying the same serious things over and over, and getting nowhere. And often at considerable cost. I've been there many times. I've stopped reaching out too. Here is the only place I feel heard, understood and helped when I'm at my wit's end.

'I don't know what to do' is my constant thought, so I just plod on as best I can.

I hope you're doing alright at the moment.

Hey @Loz_3647 .

I know the feeling. I have found that at times when I have really needed help the person on the phone was clearly being scripted and prompted in a trained manner. I know they are trying to help but I don’t think they realise how fake and scripted they sound.
It has left me feeling worse and even more detached than I was before I reached out.
It takes a good therapist, social worker or peer support worker who “gets it”. Just know that it’s not you. Many others are having this same struggle.

do you have a therapist or support person.?

what support is in place for you. What is your plan for coping and getting through the hard times?

Oh @Loz_3647, you've tried everything–like so many of us. That emergency services left you at home shows that you are used to keeping it all locked up inside. Me too.

I don't have any advice, @Loz_3647, because I can't help myself and, like you, I've tried everything. I hope you're doing well enough today. Take care of yourself.