Struggling: TW suicide

I'm listening to depressing music about feeling worthless. Is this helping or making my mental state worse? At least it makes me feel less alone.

I've done that before @creative_writer !

I listened to depressing music when I was feeling low. I can't say it helped to lift my spirits though... i think it sort if validated my feelings of depression.

What do you think?

I can make you a cuppa if you want 🙂

I'm feeling pretty 'myeah'... I'm not down. I'm not up. @creative_writer

I've caught up on sleep, so I know it's not sleep that's the issue. I think I have outstanding work due... you know, like those assignments that just need doing? Similar to that feeling.

I just can't get motivated to do it....

One good thing... since our fish oil discussion, I've been having 2 fish oil capsules everyday. Whether it helps or not, I've got a bottle, so I may as well have it 🙂

How's your day been anyway?

That too @creative_writer - in a way, I feel like this year has flown... we are already at the end of the year!

I remember the end of the year used to be such a trigger for me. There would be less support services, too many social gatherings, too much stress... so many inpatient stays back then during the end of year period.

However, there was one year where I said "This year will be different"... and it has been every since. I've been able to schedule in activities and pace myself. I no longer dread it any more...but you are right... it's that time of year... people are tired. People need a break.

As for your assignment... all the best with it. I don't really have an assignment for uni or anything... i just have work to do that I'm procrastinating about!!!!

Oh @creative_writer - i did eat tuna today. I really enjoyed it. Just tuna in chilli oil with rice and veges. I'm really bulking up fish in my diet since our conversation lol

I live on my own and don't have supports around me, so professional supports at the end of the year were very important. At first, admitted to inpatient units, then I was under CATT at the end of the year to reduce the need for inpatient stays, then later, it moved to admission into PARCs at the end of each year, then finally, I walked out of PARCs and pretty much said, "I won't be needing this anymore - I can do it"... and haven't been back since. @creative_writer Don't get me wrong, PARCs was instrumental in my recovery. To this day, I can't thank them enough! I got so much out of each stay.

Out of curiosity, what type of fish do you normally eat? I don't like the taste of basa.... it tastes like muddy water to me... I like steamed salmon or raw salmon, but not fried. Barramundi is okay, snapper is okay...as for tuna, i have to be in the mood for it.