Struggling: TW suicide

Yeah. It true that some days are harder than others @creative_writer . I am waiting and hoping things improve next week.

I sort of knew this 'crash' was coming because I had been on the go for a number of weeks now.

I do trust things will get better. Also, I guess I haven't eaten much today. So I'm going to have something to eat soon. Salmon with veges tonight.

Have you had dinner?

tyme

@tyme being on the go constantly can be tiring so I wouldn’t be so surprised that you’re feeling really exhausted. We are human at the end of the day.

I went into a spiral recently too, but I don’t know if that was partly my fault too. I realised something, that came out of the blue. But maybe I shouldn’t have gone overboard on trying to understand things all by myself but I couldn’t help myself. No wonder they always say to process things with a therapist. So now the trauma hurts more, and my depressive episode feels stronger.

I’ve had hoki with vegetables which is pretty close to you @tyme 🙂

Hearing you @creative_writer . I was just posting in another thread the idea of reframing situations for our own benefit and not the other persons. I'll copy and paste it here:

"As for anger and hatred etc, I had to come to the realisation that the anger I had within me didn't make an ounce of difference to those that caused the hate. In the end, I learnt I had to reframe my thinking so that I wouldn't dwell on the hurt, anger and rage.

This does not mean I do not get angry though. It's more that I don't dwell and let the anger fester.

In the past, I had people make allegations against me. Although these allegations were no where true, people who knew about it said that the person was a liar etc. However, more me, I did not want to frame it that they were a 'liar'. Instead, I accepted it as 'they misunderstood'. Why? because it would mean I wouldn't have to look at that person as a liar and hate them. If I see them that they misunderstood, it helps me forgive them and not hold it against them. Therefore, that anger leaves me.

So sometimes, re-framing thoughts and ideas does help. Not because you condone the action/s, but because you want it off your own chest."

Yes, tonight I feel down, but I do believe a good night's sleep will help.

I've just had my dinner. It was delicious! Hope yours is as yum as mine. I love eating noodles.

@tyme I'm glad you were able to reframe your anger, hate and rage. I wish I could too but not entirely sure how to for my situation, it's hard for SA.

An early night sounds good. I think I will have one too. Ohh noodles sound good. I do love fish and veggies, does make me feel a bit more relaxed afterwards, the omega 3s are essential.

I hear you about SA and 'forgiving' the person. @creative_writer . It's not easy.

I guess the 'forgiveness' is for yourself - not them.

It's to help you realise that no matter what you do, it's not going to turn back time.

I'm really hearing you @creative_writer - I just hope you can find space to forgive yourself and be able to live the life you deserve.

As for fish, i'm interested to know more about how eating it makes you feel better. I didn't know that was a thing. I know omega 3 is good, but I didn't imagine eating a piece of fish can make me feel better.... hrm... very very interesting indeed.

@tyme I do hope to find peace but I need to transfer this anger outside of me, I hope I am able to do that in the healing process. We can only move forward and can’t change painful events. I just hope with time I feel less defined by it and it consumes me less. I do feel ashamed a lot of the time but I knew I couldn’t have stopped it from happening. Sometimes I wonder if I am overreacting, but it was SA at the end of the day, it’s normal to not feel okay with it.

Omega 3 is good for the brain. I try to make sure I eat enough each week because I feel like it helps with my mood and migraines a bit.

Your perspective re what happened is very inspiring. It takes a lot to be able to say what you have said tonight about not letting it consume you. @creative_writer . I believe in you very much. There will be times where the past hurts, but I hope you will find space to that it no longer defines you and no longer continues to haunt you. I'm sorry it happened.

Maybe I should eat more fatty fish and see if there is a difference in my mood. Actually, come to think of it, I have been told to take fish oil capsules everyday. I do for a while, then I don't bother. I should really start doing it again.

Do you take fish oil?

@tyme ❤️

I just cook fish, my dad takes some of it too! He’s at that age when he has to look after himself better. I haven’t tried fish oil capsules so I can’t comment on the effects. I really do believe healthy diets do make a difference, I know if I don’t eat well I get cranky.

You are so right. I think I haven't eaten well today, and that's also contributing to my feeling a little lousy. @creative_writer

Healthy diets certainly make a HUGE difference... and exercise. The weather here has been atrocious. It's hailing, then sunny, then pouring rain, and then freezing cold, then warm again....I feel as unpredictable as the weather!

I hope to be able to do some more exercise this week.

Do you do anything particular for exercise?