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creative_writerSenior Contributor
I have been struggling a lot lately with suicidal thoughts. It’s become a daily occurrence and it’s been really overwhelming to cope. I am safe right but having to fight this is very exhausting. I feel so trapped, I am tired of living in pain, fear and shame. I feel like a burden to people and unimportant.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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SnowieSenior Contributor
I couldn't agree more @creative_writer
I too have suffered from SA and am very careful about who I open up too. It has taken me quite a long time to feel comfortable with my psych to be able to tell her things. And even then I am very careful about what I say.
I also find living in a small town hard to access local supports. I have to travel 45mins every time I want to see my psych and about an hour to see my pdoc.
It is certainly hard to find people who can be in our small trust circle. I hope you find someone you can talk too
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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SnowieSenior Contributor
It is difficult @creative_writer but you are being so proactive in finding those people we can trust. I hope for your mental and physical health that you can find the supports you deserve.
Stress can be a huge trigger. I find this time of year so stressful too.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
@SnowieI don’t find the festive season all that stressful because I don’t do Christmas, however, the long days can screw up my circadian rhythm. I can go into a very agitated depressive state, the kind that feels like manic and depressive symptoms simultaneously, so I have to be super careful with light exposure. I seem to be more prone to mixed states than hypomania right now. I can always bring up what supports might be available with my psych during my next appointment. I just have to keep trying with a psychiatrist, some of them are no longer taking new clients and the ones that are have long wait lists. I hope you do find some relief soon, the festive season can be stressful for a lot of people 💞
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SnowieSenior Contributor
It might be a wise idea to bring it up with your psych at your next session @creative_writer
It is hard to find good supports. Even harder when the good ones are not taking any more patients, or we have to go on a wait list. I hope you find someone soon.
The festive season is very stressful. I would much rather hide away but do the family thing for my kids. I want it to be special for them.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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SnowieSenior Contributor
Sorry @creative_writer Was cooking dinner for the kids.
It is hard reducing the medicare rebate just to 10 sessions. That does not get you far.
I hope this afternoon has been a little better for you
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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SnowieSenior Contributor
That sounds yummy @creative_writer
I had pumpkin gnocchi with blue cheese sauce. It was actually really easy to make and tasty. Better yet everyone ate it!
Shame is a common response. I blame myself for what happened, for not speaking up, for not stopping it. Of course my psych says it wasn't my fault and that I cannot blame myself but that is easier said then done.
I hope someday you meet someone that is worthy to be with you. You deserve someone that will love you for who you are, regardless of your upbringing.
I am going to head of now and go to bed. I have to get up early in the morning so best I get some sleep.
Thank you for keeping me company today. It has made a difference for me and has helped keep me safe. I hope you are able to get some sleep tonight and tomorrow is a better day for you. It was so nice to connect with you today 💜
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