Hi @HappyLucia,
Welcome to the forums. My name is FloatingFeather and I am one of the peer support workers at SANE. Thank you for sharing your story with us - I know it's not always easy and it is really brave of you to share how you are feeling. There are a lot of lovely members on the forums with a wide range of lived experience and wisdom so know you are amongst friends.
I'm sorry to read that you are suffering from depression - I have suffered from depression on and off most of my life so I really sympathise with you. I know how hard it can be.
Just on a side note (and I understand as you may not be aware) but the guidelines at SANE say that anyone on the forums can't discuss medications by name, quantity etc. I hope you understand and please do not take it personally - it's just a rule in place to respect our members privacy and to keep us all safe. Here is a link to our Guidelines & Info https://saneforums.org/t5/help/faqpage just in case you haven't seen them :).
Please keep reaching out on the forums - I look forward to reading the other responses to your from our lovely forum members.
Best wishes,
FloatingFeather