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Hi there,

So, it's a big step for me to log on here- I have been thinking about doing it for a while but never had the 'guts' actually to do it.

I suffer from multiple diagnoses, (C-PTSD; BPD; ED) and after recently having another hospital admission first to the med ward and then in psych, I got to a point where I decided that perhaps it was time to start to look at recovery. Now, however, I'm not so sure whether I truly want that and it's like living in a nightmare... The constant "toing and froing".... being scared of getting the supports in place that the hospital wanted on discharge... dealing with the ED voices telling me that I should start restricting again and that I'm not worthy of recovery... falling off the wagon and bingeing...

I don't know whether I can take this. Recovery is a bitch!!!

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@Bow OMG that would be very traumatic for you, being told to go no matter what your intake was. I'm sorry you experienced that.

Totally get the ED voice praising you when bloods are "bad". Does yours do a little happy dance inside your head?!!

Yeah I need to talk to the GP about the EDMHP. See what they say.

I do get a psychiatrist alongside with my cm, however, they're not understanding at all. Everyone who has them hates them. I haven't had to see them yet (only just go relinked in to community) but they were working in the psych ward when I was there in Feb so I know what to expect.

DSP can be a bit hard to get as well, I was fortunate to get on it in 2001, otherwise I'm not sure whether I would still get it. My advice is to get all your professional supports to submit the forms saying why it will help you etc. Also have patience with getting approved... on average 3-4 months, but they do back pay you.

I've been suffering from the ED since 98, but wasn't officially diagnosed until 2 years ago. How about you?

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Thanks @Ausgirl

yeah, my ED does that. I guess that’s part of my ED, it self destructive side. I’m trying really hard after my recent admission though and I’ve got travel planned next month, so need and want to be well for that.

id definitely encourage you to talk with your gp about the ED plan, I only really use it for my dietitian, but it makes all the difference. And thanks for the advice about DSP, I will keep that in mind.

I only developed an ED 2 years ago when alot of things in my life were out of control. Diagnosed 18mths ago.

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@Bow that's wonderful you've got that travel booked for next month, keep it as a good motivator for staying well 💕🌷.

Yeah trauma/hard times etc quite often bring ED on. Wish more people realised this...

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@Ausgirl wrote:

I recently had a med ward admission for the ED and the staff there 'hated' having a MH patient on the ward. The little snide comments that were made, refusing to talk at all to me when changing the feeds, administering the meds etc, asking the nursing special 'if they were ok with me' and then rolling their eyes etc...


OMG @Ausgirl , this is terrible! 😮

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@NatureLover thanks, unfortunately at this particular health service it happens quite a bit, across a variety of settings- different hospitals and wards (I know other patients who've had bad experiences or I've witnessed things as well).

I spent a total of five months in hospital last year (3 months first time, 2 months second) and the system that's "supposed to care" quite often doesn't. Yes, I understand that it's a stressful environment, it was/is in the middle of a pandemic, staff are overworked/underpaid etc but that doesn't mean patients don't deserve to be treated with dignity, compassion and respect!!

Anyway, rant over lol... *gets off soapbox*

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@Ausgirl wrote:

@NatureLover thanks, unfortunately at this particular health service it happens quite a bit, across a variety of settings- different hospitals and wards (I know other patients who've had bad experiences or I've witnessed things as well).

I'm sorry to hear that, @Ausgirl 😞

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@NatureLover Ty much appreciated

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