AusgirlContributor
Hi all
Hi there,
So, it's a big step for me to log on here- I have been thinking about doing it for a while but never had the 'guts' actually to do it.
I suffer from multiple diagnoses, (C-PTSD; BPD; ED) and after recently having another hospital admission first to the med ward and then in psych, I got to a point where I decided that perhaps it was time to start to look at recovery. Now, however, I'm not so sure whether I truly want that and it's like living in a nightmare... The constant "toing and froing".... being scared of getting the supports in place that the hospital wanted on discharge... dealing with the ED voices telling me that I should start restricting again and that I'm not worthy of recovery... falling off the wagon and bingeing...
I don't know whether I can take this. Recovery is a bitch!!!