I can’t cope

Oh hon I am so sorry @Captain24 Please don't believe her. This says more about her then you. She sounds like she has to put others down to lift herself up. These people are just not worth it.

However I can imagine that those words hurt.

Sitting with you 💗💗

Hey there @Captain24

I'm so sorry that happened 😞 I hope that you're okay

Please don't listen to her at all, you have every right to express how you were feeling and what was happening for you ❤️

Sending you hugs

I proved her right and sat in my bed crying. It has hurt so deep down.

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@Captain24 wrote:

I was complaining about my sore muscles and one of the girls in the group called me a cry baby. She has ruined my day and I have to spend the rest of the afternoon with her. I’m so angry, hurt and feel shamed.

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Um.... What? Why would people do that??? @Captain24

So sorry it's ruined things for you today.

(btw, good to see you).

Every time I sleep on the floor, I remember you 🙂

I’m so tired @tyme. I was so triggered. I did get another massive bear hug at lunchtime though from my friend that gave me one at the start of the day! I don’t know when it’ll be before I see her again.

At check in in the groups I said I was not ok and was really triggered, it got to ‘cry baby’ girl and she said the same. I was thinking in my head F you. She’s a stupid bitch. At least I only have 2 groups left with her.

2 more sleeps and then I’m home! Back to my own house, my own bed, my own space and my awesome little babies!

Im feeling really alone right now. Everyone I talked to has left. Now it’s just people here. One girl thinks she is my friend but she just keeps annoying me. Whatever you have done in your life she has. The facilitator had bright pink nails, now she does. One of the girls wears makeup so she does. It’s like she has to copy the people she likes. I don’t know if that’s making any sense?

Anyway.. enough of me whinging.

I love that you think of me with the floor. I’m sleeping on a plastic covered mattress! I can’t wait to be able to roll over in bed and not hear the plastic and have the sheets sliding of it!

How have you been?

@Captain24 ?

Sorry i did t make any sense @tyme

Not sure if you are up to hear by experiences of group.

For me, it was the hardest, but most beneficial for my recovery. You know why? I was 'stuck' with the same 7 people for 12 months in the SAME group!!! There was a girl I could not stand AT ALL! It was as though she was an attention seeker. So many times, I walked out when she spoke because I really couldn't stand her comments.

You know what? THat was the BIGGEST learning for me - to 'put up' with people I couldn't stand instead of avoiding them. In the past, by nature I just moved away from people I didn't like. However, group showed me that in life there are people you natually can't stand - we still need to see the goodness in them.

That was a hue learning for me. To this day, it's really make a difference... imagine... 12 months with the same people... i HATED her ways....!

@Captain24

OMG a whole year of one group! @tyme

I think I’m just heightened because I’m so tired, I’m so exhausted, I feel really sick I can’t go far from the bathroom and I just want to go home. But I’m scared to at the same time. I’m also concerned as my CM hasn’t gotten back to me with an appointment time. I haven’t seen the Pdoc in here yet. Im just so overwhelmed with everything.

Im sorry Im just doing it a bit though tonight. It’s funny how your head reverts back to the same behaviours so easily. But I am stronger than them and tomorrow is a new day.

Yes, you are right. You are stronger than them. You many be even stronger than you realise! You have come soooo far. This is not the end of your recovery. It's only the beginning. But we are here for you.

Yes, one year of with the same group and then the last 6 months was half the group. It's a rolling group which means every 6 months, half the group goes out and another half come in. @Captain24

But yes, 1 year with the person I hated. She would say things like "Oh, I'm so slow. I took ***hours to run a **km marathon".. it was in a way where she knew no one would even think about running a marathon, yet she boasted how SLOW she was for the long distance she ran....

So stuff like that was really irksome.