I can’t cope

@Captain24 it all sounds really intense, but you are communicating with the staff and doing amazingly. Dealing with mental stuff is so hard, and then talking to other people about it, being vulnerable and looking for help is extremely draining. Even having a psych appt now and then I remember leaving feeling frail, can't imagine what it is like at the clinic.

Only up from here, I'm hoping your anxiety gives you a break soon, I'm sure you are going to come out of all this in a way stronger place. Sending good vibes like always.

@Captain24 A huge well done! From a very rough day with meltdowns and trouble breathing, to asking for help and getting it. I'm glad they told you that this was normal and that things get worse before they get better...just so you know what to expect. Also that you are in safe place to have a breakdown 🫂

I hope today you feel a little better 🤞 💙

It’s turning out to be a rough day again @NatureLover . The fire alarm has gone off again. It’s gone off everyday for 3 days.

Im a little more confident in reaching out. I even asked for extra meds last night.

My heart is racing. I’m not ok.

Can you tell a nurse or someone that you're not OK, @Captain24 ?

Well done for asking for the meds last night.

Just went for a really big walk down to the beach. We came back and I got to play with my pdocs therapy dog. It was so good. Now I’m about to head into groups on fight or flight and then the anxiety group. I’m a little stressed about those but I know it’s needed. I just need to not be triggered much.

I managed to get through groups with just one break but it was the end anyway. The facilitator came and checked on me. She was the same one as yesterday so she knew how things were for me.

We have a lady with a therapy dog starting in our group. I cried when I found out. I don’t know if I can do it with a dog in group. I can only wait and see how it goes. If I struggle I can go to my pdocs dog for a cuddle and a play.

I am really home sick and missing my dogs. I struggling a little. The nurse that was on last night isn’t here tonight. I really need her for a chat.

I just got my meds and had prn. If I wake during the night I can go and get some more.

Just doing it a bit tough

Hey @Captain24 !

So good to hear from you!

I'm sure you are missing your babies. Did you bring a photo of them with you?

How's everything?

Hey @tyme

Im missing them so much. I’ve been here a week tomorrow.

Yesterday was a really tough day. They even called my Pdoc in here. In the morning a few of us went for a walk. When I got back I used the ‘I need time out’ card. After a bit I went and signed myself out to go for a walk. I panic because I didn’t know where to go so I just sat on my car. Then I was walking around the grounds like a mad woman. A couple of the girls got me to sit down and I had a complete and utter breakdown. Like never before. I was I flight mode. I just wanted to get out.

They supported me through it. Another girl came with a dog. It’s my pdocs dog. So I patted home for a bit and we took home to groups. But we had to leave, he is only a pup and wouldn’t behave. So we went up to the outpatient suite where his play room is and it was great. I asked for prn!

I wasn’t ok. We had dinner and one of the nurses came and got me and we went for a walk. I told her I didn’t feel safe. I also said under no circumstances are they to give me my car keys as I can’t be trusted. Go me! They couldn’t give me another one of the prns that I took earlier so they gave me a different one. If that didn’t work they were calling my Pdoc for extra approval. They had already told her about my melt down.

I just found out that a new lady is coming to my group and she has an assistance dog. I’m not going to cope with that. It bought me to tears when I found out.

So I am struggling and pretty badly but I am reaching out and I am being honest.

I wish the nice nurse from last night was on or the nice on from dayshift. I could do with a little extra. But I did have my night prn to help though.

I really am trying my hardest and using the resources around me.

Sorry that was a lot but you asked! 😜

How are you?

So proud of you @Captain24 .

There have been so many changes already. You would've never asked for help before.

You are in the safest place to 'let it out'. It sounds like the staff are amazingly supportive. I'm so glad you are there. I recognise it is so hard, but as I've said, change is NOT meant to be easy.

It sounds like the other people are very understanding and supportive too.

Take it slowly. Do what you can, and let them know when you just 'can't' do it.

Good on you for being assertive and letting people know what you need! - Go YOU!!

Hold on in there.

We are still here, cheering you on.

Hi @Captain24

Well done hon for reaching out. I know how much courage that can take. You should be really proud of yourself for just how much you have accomplished in just one week.

I know just how hard it is to be in there and how much we miss by being in here.

There is a lady in here who has a support dog too. Every time I see it I think of home too.

Sitting with you hon ❤️