I can’t cope

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@Captain24 wrote:

T/W: Child mental abuse

I am so broken and so alone. The hurt runs so deep that it’s making me sick.

I feel like that little girl that was told she was unwanted, not good enough, would amount to nothing and not worthy of anything. I always felt so unloved and so uncared for.

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I'm just so sad to hear this @Captain24 😢

It's not right, what was done to you (and is still done to you) by your parents.

And I'm sorry the dog sitter fell through...will be sending wishes for a solution. And for healing for you...

@tyme I don't have a TV either, by choice. But as to the rest, I can see why you can't relate to my hoarding disorder 😢

I like her music @tyme but I’m not a fan. I’m a Kylie fan and I really like Pink.

Thank you for sharing that @Bow. I will have a million questions for you when it gets closer. Like what do I pack, what do I wear? lol I’ll try most things of an afternoon (if it’s the same) I’ll have to fill in time somehow. I don’t go to the gym or exercise so it could be interesting.

I’ll be in the water every week end @Acanthiza. I love the ocean. It’s really annoying, I have to hand the keys of my car in so I can’t drive while I’m there. I’ve never been to that part of the Australia and would love to look around.

Thanks @NatureLover. I always wanted to have kids but at the same time I scared as I didn’t really have a loving childhood and was worried I’d pass it on.

I don’t know how you cope without a tv. I have 2 but I don’t have one in my bedroom. I see it as the place to sleep. I think a tv would affect that.

I hope you are all doing well today and can have a good day.

Ask away for sure @Captain24!

I took my own pillow and a super soft fluffy comfy blanket- just made my bed that little more homely.
I wore tights and oversized tshirts and cardigans. Whatever is comfy to you. A lot of people wore oodies. Uggs- I lived in them.
And then things to do. I had my paint by numbers, colouring in. Books. Electronic devices.

Awesome thanks @Bow. I was thinking I had to wear fancier clothes like shirts and jeans and stuff.

I need to find things to do. Arty stuff isn’t me. I never like colouring in when I was a kid! lol.

Hope today is going alright for you!

Hey @Captain24 @Bow - how are things today?

Hey @tyme

Ive kept myself really busy so far today. I have so much stuff to get ready for going away on Monday. I’ve left it all to the last minute and I’m panicking. I’m hoping I can get it all done today so I don’t have to stress tomorrow.

I’ve done heaps but still got heaps to go. Just have to finish mowing out the front, wash the car and then bathe the dogs and that’s all the big jobs done.

Im getting pretty sunburnt and I’m sweating like a stuffed pig!

How are you?

Hey @tyme 👋

im ok. Tired and headachy though. I’m not sleeping real well at the moment.
went to the shops this morning after dropping D at her fathers and mum at the station. Wandered around for a couple of hours and then passed out on my bed- absolutely exhausted!

you’ve done a lot today @Captain24 ! You’re a machine!

how’s your Saturday going @tyme ?

Hahaha @NatureLover , so so true! That's why I can't relate to hoarding because I live on the other extreme!

For me, I prefer reading than watching things. I think I just don't like the sound that comes from TV.

We are all so different, aren't we? Yet none is better than the other.

Hope you have a good day @NatureLover 🙂

@Acanthiza , what's home like for you?

Wow @Captain24 ! Pocket rocket today! I've been going going going but I'm a lot more settled than what the week has been. I haven't even seen the kids today. I'm sure I'll see them later. Hope you sleep well after all your work today! Stay hydrated.

@Bow , I'm sorry you didn't have a good sleep - maybe you needed to sleep on the floor lol. You can fluff up your pillow and lie down on the floor lol - jokes... as much as you love your D, I hope you have a peaceful day while she's at her dad's.