I can’t cope

Thank you! @tyme I appreciate it.

Oh it’s good that you know them.

You’ll have to show me what you get!! I’m excited. Did you drive into town or did you catch public transport?

We don’t have a 7/11. So next time it’ll be Gloria jeans. I didn’t want to get out of though. I’m in the clothes I went to hospital in.

@Captain24 ,

Gloria jeans is pretty good @Captain24

Argh... your post makes me go back to think about the times I was discharged in a hospital gown because I had no clothes!!!! The bare-bottom ones!!!

Don't go down that path!

I have to laugh now, but it wasn't funny back then.

Just stay home and relax Captain... enjoy your time.

OMG!!! @tyme Thats an image I didn’t need. 😜

I had pyjamas on when they came and I asked if I could get changed. They weren’t going to let me, then they relented. So I put a bra on and a tracksuit on, while every move was being watched.

I did over hear them talking to the mental health team on the phone. They were discussing how I was dressed and how my hair was. I heard . She is well dressed in a tracksuit and her hair is a bun. I don’t know what that was about.

Once I was so unwell and so angry that I just walked out of the hospital and walked home @Captain24 ... yes, I was in a gown....

Geez.. I get the shivers just thinking about it. Are you able to access any PARC services? That's where I got the most support

Oh bad memories @tyme. Did you at least hold the bum part shut?

I don’t think there is anything like that around here.

The inpatient that I’m looking at is a stand alone so it’s not a hospital as such. But it specialises in mood disorders.

So I don’t know if it’s the same.

PARC is quite different..

It's a step up/down program. It's voluntary and people can go in and out (which makes it less hospital-ish).

They run daily psycho-educational groups and activities. People are assigned a key worker and when you go in, you work with your key worker to come up with goals. Then, just before discharge, they use rating scales to rate how you went in achieving your goals.

Anyway, I hope there's space for you in this private clinic. As long as things are moving - that's the main thing.

I hope so @tyme.

I know it’s a while away and I have a lot to get through and hold onto until then. But at least it’s a start that I never thought I would do. I still don’t believe I've agreed to it. I’ve already come up with what to say to mum.

If I go away now I will have to be honest and I really don’t want to be. I don’t think I’m able to. I’m struggling to be honest with myself.

Hey @Captain24 ,

Go easy on yourself. When push comes to shove, people may need a little push in the right direction. I feel this is it.

Things are moving. I'm not saying it's easy, but it's moving....

I'm going to hop off forums now, but I'll chat tomorrow?

Thank you for the distraction today. @tyme. I really appreciated and needed it.

Enjoy shopping

So mum and dad have picked up Keiko.

My CM didn’t email me with an appointment time for tomorrow. Maybe she has forgotten. I hope not. I need her, I need someone.