I can’t cope

If you feel up to it, give Lifeline or Suicide call back service a call. It won't solve things, but letting it out can sometimes help. I recognise you haven't had good experiences in the past with these services, but who knows? The luck of the draw may mean you get a very helpful person. @Captain24

Give yourself a chance. There's nothing too hard.

You mean a lot to all of us. You deserve support.

I just want to let you know that I'm also hopping offline now, but moderators will be online 24/7 if you need anything.

Hi @Captain24 , you're definitely not a waste of time! I like spending time with you. 🙂

I hope your CM comes back soon, to help you around the subject of a possible admission?

Also concerned as you wrote:

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@Captain24 wrote:

Absolutely no support at all is harder than I thought. But it’s better for everyone else me leaving.

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Are you in contact with your professional supports? Worried when you said "no support at all".

It's not better for all of us if you leave the forums, but only if you yourself need a break from the forums.

Thank you for your good wishes ❤️

Hi @Captain24 , thinking of you, hoping you're OK and your SI is manageable... 🙏

I jumped on here last night as I was reading that a friend really needed some support. A comment was made that I’ve been stewing on all night.

Im really unwell which is why I don’t feel like I’m good enough to be here.

I’m about to drive home from work and I feel like I’m in a deep dark hole and I think I’m in a bit of trouble.

I made it home but I’m still in trouble.

I’ll go and leave you all alone so I’m not hassling anyone. Let anyone down or causing any concern. This way no one has to think of me.

Please all look after yourselves you all deserve a good life and I hope you can all find some peace.

Hey there @Captain24

How are you going? I will send you an email and check in on you ❤️

Sending you hugs

Hi @Captain24

Sending lots of hugs and love hon

💜💜

What’s wrong with me?

Not a thing @Captain24 you are a human being who has endured significant traumas, and your brain and body are reacting rationally (well, evolutionarily rationally, even if not logically rationally, if that makes sense) to the experiences you've been through. Someone deserving of care and compassion, and who is deeply empathetic and immensely kind.

I feel so broken and defective @Jynx