I can’t cope

Such cute photos!! So glad you finally got to sleep @Captain24

He is @outlander. He is going to be really cheeky and trouble! But he is cute.

How are things with you?

I know no one is around but I’m hoping that by being in here I feel less lonely.

I’ve been sitting in a room since 7pm. One guy came in for about 30 seconds to ask me to hotseat 2 trucks. That is the only time I saw anyone between 7 and 12. At 12 the guy jumped out of his truck and I jumped in it. When I was finished I parked the truck up and saw no one.

I just ran into my boss as I was walking to the toilet and told him that I’d seen no one and he just laughed. I just started crying and said it’s not funny. It’s not good for anyone’s mental health.

Im feeling really isolated, unwanted and lonely. I know I'm on my own at home but I choose that. I haven’t chosen to be on my own here. Here is where I get my social connections. Instead I’m not worth associating with. I’m really struggling. My MH isn’t coping at all. I have another 2 hours of sitting here on my own before I hotseat the next trucks.

Hi @Captain24 ...I'm here, and listening...

Work sounds really boring and lonely. However, you *are* worth associating with. I suspect your other work colleages were busy working?

Concerned for your mental health though. How many more night shifts have you got? Would you see more people on a day shift?

Thanks @NatureLover.

Most people were out in equipment but there was an office full of people just the next door over. But my boss said at the start of shift I had to sit in the meal room. I guess I’m just not good enough to be with. I did have a little bit of confidence at work but I lost it last night. It’s like I’ve been put on school detention .

I have 2 more nights of it. I’m not sure I can cope. It’s eating me up inside. I’m that worked up that I’m not even tired. But it’s to hard to swap from night to day as you need a day off and then that becomes a lost time injury.

I did say something to one of the guys this morning as I was leaving. Maybe he may help me out tonight.

Sorry your shift was so lonely @Captain24 😞

hoping that the sleepy fairies have hit you now and you wake feeling a bit better within yourself

Hi there uh I'm new and am getting through a really tough time don't read on if you are sensitive to topics of death

My grandma and uncle both died my grandma of cancer and my uncle of a sudden heart attack.. I'm loosing my two best friends I've had since year 7 they have both betrayed my trust by spreading my secrets and talking about me behind my back as well as invalidating my feelings I've had a really tough 8/9 years and I feel so alone with no one who can comfort me or stand by my side it's heartbreaking

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@Captain24 wrote:

I did say something to one of the guys this morning as I was leaving. Maybe he may help me out tonight.

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Hi @Captain24 , did this guy help you out last night?

Sending wishes that some people help you out tonight. After that do you have a day off, then switch to day shift?

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@Captain24 wrote:

I guess I’m just not good enough to be with.

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I'm just so sad at the damage caused to you (by your parents, I'm assuming?) that has you thinking like this 😭

I've chosen to spend time with you as I think you're an admirable person, with your top qualities of kindness, perseverence and the other one that I've forgotten but remember admiring. It was a very carefully considered choice, as my psychologist has me on a time limit of 3.5 hours a week on the forums. (This is because I burnt out on here in 2020.) I'm glad I made this choice 💙