I can’t cope

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@Captain24 wrote:

Thanks for correcting me @Jynx. I really appreciate it.

So another personal question. When feeling masculine do you dress that way and when feeling feminine do you dress that way. Or do you dress gender neutral?

Also is your name gender neutral? Also how do you go about picking a name or is it something that is already there in your mind?

I know a young child that was in kindergarten and his mum took him to a psychiatrist as he always said he was a boy. The recommendation was to come out. He went to a catholic school and they helped him transition. They allowed him to cut his hair and wear the boys uniform. His mum said it was the happiest he has been in his short life.

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I tend to dress more masc, and my feminine feels are few and far between. But like, I'll have high platform boots or a really flowy skirt from time to time. Most of the time, I just feel like me, not like a boy or like a girl. So I dress kinda like someone who just stepped out of a fantasy book, whenever I can!

My name is traditionally a male name, and it's just a name I always liked. I would always use the name for video game characters and making profiles for stuff online, so it seemed fitting! Some folks find it easy to choose a new name, some don't - I have friends who've changed their name half a dozen times. All part of the process of self-discovery!

Aww that's so sweet! It's really heartwarming to hear stories where trans people get treated like, oh I don't know, people!

Thanks for responding to my million and one questions! @Jynx

I hope you have had a good day?

Any time @Captain24 I'm always happy to help others learn, and I know it can be hard to find out about the community without knowing who to ask, or if what you're asking is appropriate. So ask away 😁

My day has been alright, just plodding along as per! How about yourself?

Thanks @Jynx. I’ll prolly have more questions..

I worked today. They let me come home early though as I was just sitting around. I’m still on light duties. I feel bad that I didn’t go and pick up the dogs but I just couldn’t deal with mum. I’ll have to deal with her when she drops them off though. She’ll be in the car though so hopefully it won’t be long.

I just don’t need to hear everything that has happened today. Or how hard life is. Or how I make her life hard.

I’m really really unwell and just can’t take anymore on. I can’t even fake it. I sat in an office today with others and didn’t even speak. I just don’t have it in me. I’m really not sure I should be on my own.

Also I had a physio appointment at 6:30 this morning. I had to take my shirt off. I was really worried but she never said anything about my marks. I know that she saw them though. The shame.

Anyway that’s not what you asked. My day was sort of ok I guess.

Im glad you had an alright day. Are you ready to head up north?

@Captain24 it's that much harder to listen to someone else's troubles when you've got enough of your own. I'm sorry things with your mum are like that, sounds quite exhausting.

They never said anything, so it's fair to presume they didn't care? If they did judge you, they didn't make it your issue. I try my best not to make assumptions, even when my brain does it automatically. We can never know what someone is truly thinking. And, of course, 'Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.' Does this persons opinion of you get to dictate how you view yourself? They don't get to have that power over you, if you don't want them to.

Haha not at all ready! But after I finish tonight, I'll do a little packing and a little cleaning. Hard to decide what to bring, cos the weather up there will be so different!

Must. Remember. Swimmers.

😂

Yeah.. I guess she doesn’t really matter and the fact that she didn’t bring it up was good.

You leave this week don’t you @Jynx ?

Is it the mid/north coast? It’ll be quite warm! Definitely swimmers. It’ll be great beach weather.

It was warm here today. When I jumped in my car at 5pm it said 39 degrees. So it was really nice. Love that weather. We are expecting a lot of rain in the next 2 days though. That will make it humid.

@Captain24 I'm headed up on Wednesday, and on leave from Friday.

Yikes, 39 degrees! I can't stand anything higher than 30, even 25 is pushing it. Buuuut jumping into the ocean on a hot day is pretty blissful so hopefully that will ease my discomfort haha.

What's your favourite thing about the beach?

Oh I love it @Jynx the hotter the better.

You leave in Wednesday and you aren't ready? I’d be freaking out. My bag would be packed by now!

I love listening to the waves crash. I love watching them crash in the rocks. I love the smell. I love feeling the waves roll over me!

Mum just dropped the dogs in. She didn’t have much to say which is really good. I went out there looking like a sad sack of misery but she didn’t notice. I’m relieved.

Haha @Captain24 for me, the best motivation is a rapidly approaching deadline. Thanks ADHD!

Aww yes watching the waves is soooo soothing. I also love going to explore rock pools and finding funky lil critters, and pretty shells to scoop up.

I'm glad your mum stopping in wasn't too stressful for you this evening. How are the doggos?

I can’t find any rock pools where we go @Jynx. I might have to walk off the beaten track. When we go next I might do that. Depending on snakes.

Jett is exhausted! Poor little bugger couldn’t even hold his head up. Pix is just really sore. I’m a bit worried but we see her rehab vet on Wednesday.

Are you looking forward to going away?